venusbluejeans
09-03-14, 23:11
I wasn’t actually going to post this thread mainly because of two reasons.
1. The forum is (sadly) full of negative posts at the minute and positive posts seem to go ignored as people seem to concentrate on the negative aspects rather than looking at the positives hard to do but it is the only way you are going to move forward.
2. Every time I write a success thread I seem to shoot myself in the foot and have a blip soon afterwards!
After Speaking to someone though I realise that there was no reason for me not to share my successes, that they shouldn’t be hidden away, no matter how small they are and maybe if there were more success stories then people wouldn’t always assume that Anxiety and panic is a “death sentence” so to speak…… ok probably a bad analogy!
Anyway to my thread lol…….
Back in October 2013 I plummeted into a downward spiral of Anxiety and panic it was a very low time for me and one I felt I couldn’t get myself out of, my life completely ground to a halt. I spent my days in a Panic 24/7 and most of it in tears saying that I really couldn’t cope with it any more.
My panic and Anxiety stems back from something that happened while I was alone…… the loss of a loved one and the Monophobia came back with avengence, the what if something happened to a loved one while they were away from me… of course there was just as much chance of things happening (or not) if I was there or not…. It is the nature of Anxiety that our brains try to tell us things that just isn’t true and when we are anxious we believe those things
Many months passed and nothing seemed to change at all most days I couldn’t even leave the settee without a lot of effort, but I am very lucky to have a group of online friends and friends around me who would never give up on me….. I got shouted at, I was given sympathy and most of all I was given a HUGE kick up the backside.. a much needed one…… those people know who they are so thank you so much to each and every one of you xxxxxxx
Slowly life seemed to change, I seemed to see things differently partly due to the citalopram I was taking but the bigger thing was a change of attitude… why should I let this ruin my life again, I was bigger than the anxiety and I wasn’t about to let it win!!
I started to do more, go out more and even finished an online course that I had been doing, a big achievement, I again realised that if I was going to get myself out of it I was damn well gonna have to get off my arse and help myself….. no one else could make me better it had to come from within.
I got back into the car again and made myself drive, I could do it before without a problem so why couldn’t I now? The more I drove the more I realised that there was nothing to be scared of. That is the same with anything you need to prove to your brain that your thoughts are unfounded and that you can really do things.
Today made me think about how far I had come……. I was sat in the house completely alone and I really couldn’t care less, In fact I enjoyed it, the peace and quiet being able to watch what I wanted on the tv and have my music on as loud as I wanted :)
You need to challenge yourself, prove to yourself that anxiety is nothing to be afraid of, tell it to do its worst as it is just your brain playing tricks on you. You need to take on advice from people who have been there and done it, even if that means being told you are being stupid and being given what feels like a huge kick in the teeth. Trust what people are saying to you even though it may not be what you want to hear. But above all remember that the strength and the courage to beat anxiety has to come from inside you, you have to be able to change the way you think and NO ONE else can do that for you.
Emmz xx
“Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.”
1. The forum is (sadly) full of negative posts at the minute and positive posts seem to go ignored as people seem to concentrate on the negative aspects rather than looking at the positives hard to do but it is the only way you are going to move forward.
2. Every time I write a success thread I seem to shoot myself in the foot and have a blip soon afterwards!
After Speaking to someone though I realise that there was no reason for me not to share my successes, that they shouldn’t be hidden away, no matter how small they are and maybe if there were more success stories then people wouldn’t always assume that Anxiety and panic is a “death sentence” so to speak…… ok probably a bad analogy!
Anyway to my thread lol…….
Back in October 2013 I plummeted into a downward spiral of Anxiety and panic it was a very low time for me and one I felt I couldn’t get myself out of, my life completely ground to a halt. I spent my days in a Panic 24/7 and most of it in tears saying that I really couldn’t cope with it any more.
My panic and Anxiety stems back from something that happened while I was alone…… the loss of a loved one and the Monophobia came back with avengence, the what if something happened to a loved one while they were away from me… of course there was just as much chance of things happening (or not) if I was there or not…. It is the nature of Anxiety that our brains try to tell us things that just isn’t true and when we are anxious we believe those things
Many months passed and nothing seemed to change at all most days I couldn’t even leave the settee without a lot of effort, but I am very lucky to have a group of online friends and friends around me who would never give up on me….. I got shouted at, I was given sympathy and most of all I was given a HUGE kick up the backside.. a much needed one…… those people know who they are so thank you so much to each and every one of you xxxxxxx
Slowly life seemed to change, I seemed to see things differently partly due to the citalopram I was taking but the bigger thing was a change of attitude… why should I let this ruin my life again, I was bigger than the anxiety and I wasn’t about to let it win!!
I started to do more, go out more and even finished an online course that I had been doing, a big achievement, I again realised that if I was going to get myself out of it I was damn well gonna have to get off my arse and help myself….. no one else could make me better it had to come from within.
I got back into the car again and made myself drive, I could do it before without a problem so why couldn’t I now? The more I drove the more I realised that there was nothing to be scared of. That is the same with anything you need to prove to your brain that your thoughts are unfounded and that you can really do things.
Today made me think about how far I had come……. I was sat in the house completely alone and I really couldn’t care less, In fact I enjoyed it, the peace and quiet being able to watch what I wanted on the tv and have my music on as loud as I wanted :)
You need to challenge yourself, prove to yourself that anxiety is nothing to be afraid of, tell it to do its worst as it is just your brain playing tricks on you. You need to take on advice from people who have been there and done it, even if that means being told you are being stupid and being given what feels like a huge kick in the teeth. Trust what people are saying to you even though it may not be what you want to hear. But above all remember that the strength and the courage to beat anxiety has to come from inside you, you have to be able to change the way you think and NO ONE else can do that for you.
Emmz xx
“Promise me you'll always remember: You're braver than you believe, and stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think.”