Freaked
10-03-14, 23:51
I'm sitting in a hospital bed right now cos I can barely walk anymore and have a constant temperature for reasons unknown, but hopefully just a bad bout of my autonomic condition. My specialist admitted me this morning. My parents are sick of paying my medical bills and I can't be at home now when I get bad anymore cos they treat me very cruelly. Instead my boyfriend has to look after me and keep missing bits of college. My parents haven't visited me; instead my mom rang me crying to tell me my dad's putting his fist through things cos I'm in hospital again. I've had so many times this week where I was scared I was dying. I'm 22 and I just don't want to die alone tonight in this hospital. Nevermind my thesis and all the rest. Feeling so panicky with chest tightness and short of breath :weep: Just hope it's actually just panic.