JenniiPenny
11-03-14, 14:28
This is my first time posting here and I really dont know where to start.
Since the first week in January this year I have felt so ill... (dizziness, Nausea, Shaking, couldnt stop going to the toilet.. I thought I had some kind of food poisening!) I went to the doctor who ran blood tests, urine and stool samples, all came back fine apart from thyroid was slightly low but 'normal' (re-test in a year).
September 2013 I suffered a Miscarriage and i began to think something was wrong with me. I had never had a smear before as I always kept putting it off. My periods were all over the place and sometimes I would bleed between periods. I had a swab taken because I had yellow discharge around cervix and it came back fine. I went for a pelvic ultrasound and transviginal and she said everything looked fine. I asked the doctor for a hormone blood test and it came back with high levels of testosterone so im being referred to a specialist to confirm polycystic ovary sundrome.. even though no cysts were discovered during the scan. But I have noticed my hair has slightly thinned at the front the past year.. and i get a few 'whiskers' like mens beard hair.. but only a couple.. also trouble with weight etc
Anyway I booked myself in for my first ever smear (age 30). It made me bleed, but not for long. Ive been waiting two weeks now for the results and im so worried about it coming back abnormal and Im so annoyed with myself for leaving it til I was 30! Im convinced Ive got some kind of cancer! If im not worrying about my cervix, im worrying about my moles! or a lump in my boob thats stayed the same with no change for 4 years.. I had an ultrasound 3 years ago and they said it looked like a fibroadenoma but didnt biopsy because I was pregnant at the time and hormones could interfere with results. I was meant to go back 4 months later but didnt. I never worried about it until this year!!
Its like im self checking all the time and worrying about everything! Ive got a doctors appointment on friday... He's gonna think im crazy. Ive seen doctor after doctor for lots of different symptoms. Ive been to A&E 4 times and had an ECG four times! Its getting rediculous. One time I went to A&E with fast heartrate and dizziness, they told me i had a urine infection even though I had none of the symptoms and my doctor had checked my urine a few weeks before with negative results! Ive never had a urine infection before so I began thinking they were making it up!
I refuse medication because of the side effects. Im seeing a therapist type person every week.. only seen her twice so far. Im starting to recognise its anxiety most of the time. And looking back to January.. that was when i was at my worst, I seem slightly better than I was... but it doesnt stop me worrying to death about these smear results. I hate uncertainty! Waiting for results is the worst. My hubby just tells me to put it out my mind but its easier said than done! Cant believe this is happening to me. I never understood generalised anxiety before... its such a horrible thing to go through. Im scared im gonna die and leave my kids without a mummy ! :weep::weep:
Since the first week in January this year I have felt so ill... (dizziness, Nausea, Shaking, couldnt stop going to the toilet.. I thought I had some kind of food poisening!) I went to the doctor who ran blood tests, urine and stool samples, all came back fine apart from thyroid was slightly low but 'normal' (re-test in a year).
September 2013 I suffered a Miscarriage and i began to think something was wrong with me. I had never had a smear before as I always kept putting it off. My periods were all over the place and sometimes I would bleed between periods. I had a swab taken because I had yellow discharge around cervix and it came back fine. I went for a pelvic ultrasound and transviginal and she said everything looked fine. I asked the doctor for a hormone blood test and it came back with high levels of testosterone so im being referred to a specialist to confirm polycystic ovary sundrome.. even though no cysts were discovered during the scan. But I have noticed my hair has slightly thinned at the front the past year.. and i get a few 'whiskers' like mens beard hair.. but only a couple.. also trouble with weight etc
Anyway I booked myself in for my first ever smear (age 30). It made me bleed, but not for long. Ive been waiting two weeks now for the results and im so worried about it coming back abnormal and Im so annoyed with myself for leaving it til I was 30! Im convinced Ive got some kind of cancer! If im not worrying about my cervix, im worrying about my moles! or a lump in my boob thats stayed the same with no change for 4 years.. I had an ultrasound 3 years ago and they said it looked like a fibroadenoma but didnt biopsy because I was pregnant at the time and hormones could interfere with results. I was meant to go back 4 months later but didnt. I never worried about it until this year!!
Its like im self checking all the time and worrying about everything! Ive got a doctors appointment on friday... He's gonna think im crazy. Ive seen doctor after doctor for lots of different symptoms. Ive been to A&E 4 times and had an ECG four times! Its getting rediculous. One time I went to A&E with fast heartrate and dizziness, they told me i had a urine infection even though I had none of the symptoms and my doctor had checked my urine a few weeks before with negative results! Ive never had a urine infection before so I began thinking they were making it up!
I refuse medication because of the side effects. Im seeing a therapist type person every week.. only seen her twice so far. Im starting to recognise its anxiety most of the time. And looking back to January.. that was when i was at my worst, I seem slightly better than I was... but it doesnt stop me worrying to death about these smear results. I hate uncertainty! Waiting for results is the worst. My hubby just tells me to put it out my mind but its easier said than done! Cant believe this is happening to me. I never understood generalised anxiety before... its such a horrible thing to go through. Im scared im gonna die and leave my kids without a mummy ! :weep::weep: