Virgo1986
19-03-14, 16:48
Hi,
Firstly sorry for the long post :unsure:
So im new to all this, I have read a couple of things on here when Iv'e been having a bad day with my GAD but never actually posted, I'm hoping that someone has already been through this and can help me.
So just some quick background info. I'm a 27 YO female andd I pinpoint my anxiety starting when my mum go the all clear from cancer...7 years ago! I have had counselling which seemed to work but about 4 years ago the symptoms started up again and they have gradually got worse.
I went back to the Dr and after explaining how I felt she 'diagnosed' me with GAD, now i'm not even 100% sure that's what I have, I basically don't have panic attacks anymore but my whole life is one huge panic attack, the only time they stop is when I'm asleep. I trained to be a nurse a few years ago so unfortunately i have too much medical knowledge and keep diagnosing myself with everything, it seems to change every so often but currently I have convinced myself I either have Heart disease or lung cancer, I suffer from IBS so another problem for me is needing the toilet urgently. I no longer have palpitations etc but i get what i can only explain as flutters in my heart (which obviously makes me think I'm having a heart attack).
I always shy away from social situations and if I do go out I need to know where the toilets are as soon as i get there, as when my anxiety gets too much to handle I go straight to the toilet and try to compose myself.
Anyway I have gone off topic slightly, I am due to get married September 2015 and I am absolutely petrified that on the day I'm not going to be able to leave the house. We are having quite a big wedding (80) but they are all family and very close friends. I feel fine about the wedding reception but the church ceremony is what is making me panic, all I can think is what if i need the toilet? What if I faint? What if I have a panic attack?
I cannot wait to get married and was so happy when we got engaged but as it's nearing closer im starting to dread the whole thing.
Is there anyone out there with GAD/anxiety who has recently got married? How did you overcome the negative thoughts in your head on the day?
Any help is much appreciated :)
Firstly sorry for the long post :unsure:
So im new to all this, I have read a couple of things on here when Iv'e been having a bad day with my GAD but never actually posted, I'm hoping that someone has already been through this and can help me.
So just some quick background info. I'm a 27 YO female andd I pinpoint my anxiety starting when my mum go the all clear from cancer...7 years ago! I have had counselling which seemed to work but about 4 years ago the symptoms started up again and they have gradually got worse.
I went back to the Dr and after explaining how I felt she 'diagnosed' me with GAD, now i'm not even 100% sure that's what I have, I basically don't have panic attacks anymore but my whole life is one huge panic attack, the only time they stop is when I'm asleep. I trained to be a nurse a few years ago so unfortunately i have too much medical knowledge and keep diagnosing myself with everything, it seems to change every so often but currently I have convinced myself I either have Heart disease or lung cancer, I suffer from IBS so another problem for me is needing the toilet urgently. I no longer have palpitations etc but i get what i can only explain as flutters in my heart (which obviously makes me think I'm having a heart attack).
I always shy away from social situations and if I do go out I need to know where the toilets are as soon as i get there, as when my anxiety gets too much to handle I go straight to the toilet and try to compose myself.
Anyway I have gone off topic slightly, I am due to get married September 2015 and I am absolutely petrified that on the day I'm not going to be able to leave the house. We are having quite a big wedding (80) but they are all family and very close friends. I feel fine about the wedding reception but the church ceremony is what is making me panic, all I can think is what if i need the toilet? What if I faint? What if I have a panic attack?
I cannot wait to get married and was so happy when we got engaged but as it's nearing closer im starting to dread the whole thing.
Is there anyone out there with GAD/anxiety who has recently got married? How did you overcome the negative thoughts in your head on the day?
Any help is much appreciated :)