stay_gold
21-03-14, 21:50
I feel like my life is going down the toilet. I have stayed strong for ages and I don't think I can do it anymore.
I am so broke it's crazy, my anxiety is really bad and I get panic attacks outside the buildings where I have job interviews and have to go home again. Samw when I went to sign on so I haven't had a proper income for a while, now I have bailiffs putting a letter through my door.
I have to deal with it on my own because my friends suck, I got mixed into a clique because of my 'best friend' they smelt vulernability and put me down whenever they could so I ditched them, which means I barely see my 'bestfriend' now, seen him twice this year, last time was early feb. We were meant to go away but I really don't want to now. I'm sick of friends, they are a big trigger to my anxiety.
I have everyone contantly telling me what to do all the time but I know it's from a superior angle as they haven't taken their own advice as none of them are doing anything great themselves or are where they wanna be.
My dad doesn't answer my calls barely and I haven't done anything to him.
Now I have started drinking at home and when I can't affored it I'm thinking about it.
I am falling so fast and there is nothing I can do about it.
I am posting on here cos I just wanna be HEARD for a change.
I wanna work and be happy and meet new people.
I am so broke it's crazy, my anxiety is really bad and I get panic attacks outside the buildings where I have job interviews and have to go home again. Samw when I went to sign on so I haven't had a proper income for a while, now I have bailiffs putting a letter through my door.
I have to deal with it on my own because my friends suck, I got mixed into a clique because of my 'best friend' they smelt vulernability and put me down whenever they could so I ditched them, which means I barely see my 'bestfriend' now, seen him twice this year, last time was early feb. We were meant to go away but I really don't want to now. I'm sick of friends, they are a big trigger to my anxiety.
I have everyone contantly telling me what to do all the time but I know it's from a superior angle as they haven't taken their own advice as none of them are doing anything great themselves or are where they wanna be.
My dad doesn't answer my calls barely and I haven't done anything to him.
Now I have started drinking at home and when I can't affored it I'm thinking about it.
I am falling so fast and there is nothing I can do about it.
I am posting on here cos I just wanna be HEARD for a change.
I wanna work and be happy and meet new people.