MarkJames3
27-03-14, 16:49
Just went to pick my son up from my parents and got some bad news… I have refrained from talking about it on here as I know it may set some peoples anxiety off and its part of the reason my anxiety is so bad at the moment….
My dad was diagnosed in Jan with skin cancer on his head, originally they said it was a simple operation to remove it then a bit of radiotherapy to make sure its all gone, after weeks of tests and appointments made for the operation they have now turned around and said that they are not going to operate and they think Chemo will only prolong the inevitable.
In the last 5 years my sister has had breast cancer, my brother in law died from lung cancer (rare form) and my sister in law has had skin cancer… 4 people in the last 5 years in my extended family…
I just don't know if I can take much more of this… I feel I am at breaking point… I don't know why my family have deserved this amount of sadness for the last five years… I just don't think I am strong enough to cope any more and continually put on a brave face about it all. I am 29 years old but fell like my whole 20's has just been sadness, hurt and disappointment.. I fear what is to come...
Obviously all of this going on at the moment is affecting my life greatly, but I feel I can't talk about it because my dad and his problems… Being constantly surrounded by cancer just isn't good for me, i feel like my life is over… i have been scarred too many times in the past 5 years for it to be undone or patched up….
My dad was diagnosed in Jan with skin cancer on his head, originally they said it was a simple operation to remove it then a bit of radiotherapy to make sure its all gone, after weeks of tests and appointments made for the operation they have now turned around and said that they are not going to operate and they think Chemo will only prolong the inevitable.
In the last 5 years my sister has had breast cancer, my brother in law died from lung cancer (rare form) and my sister in law has had skin cancer… 4 people in the last 5 years in my extended family…
I just don't know if I can take much more of this… I feel I am at breaking point… I don't know why my family have deserved this amount of sadness for the last five years… I just don't think I am strong enough to cope any more and continually put on a brave face about it all. I am 29 years old but fell like my whole 20's has just been sadness, hurt and disappointment.. I fear what is to come...
Obviously all of this going on at the moment is affecting my life greatly, but I feel I can't talk about it because my dad and his problems… Being constantly surrounded by cancer just isn't good for me, i feel like my life is over… i have been scarred too many times in the past 5 years for it to be undone or patched up….