Gemmal
30-03-14, 23:50
So i thought I was making progress in my lymphoma fears , two years and counting , I even bought a self help book which is a big deal for me as it was the first time i really gave in to the fact that it is all just anxiety .
Today I am back to square one . For no particular reason I still get the symptoms they never really go away but I manage . So now I'm filling my head with thoughts that I really do have this disease and my lingering cough , itching , nodes are real and I'm not imagining this !
Sorry to post for the 1000th time it just really gets on top of me at times and I am so upset with myself for wasting two years of worrying ( I hope ) I will never be able to get that back !
I have just graduated and should be getting into a career but I have no motivation
Gemma
Today I am back to square one . For no particular reason I still get the symptoms they never really go away but I manage . So now I'm filling my head with thoughts that I really do have this disease and my lingering cough , itching , nodes are real and I'm not imagining this !
Sorry to post for the 1000th time it just really gets on top of me at times and I am so upset with myself for wasting two years of worrying ( I hope ) I will never be able to get that back !
I have just graduated and should be getting into a career but I have no motivation
Gemma