fran43
02-12-06, 01:30
Hiya, I haven't posted for a while and I thought it would be great to share what has been going on for me for a good few weeks.
I have been busy doing anxiety/self-esteem/CBT courses and am returning to work in Jan for two days. I am a legal advisor in custody and it is a pressured jobs and of course there are niggling doubts as to whether I would cope with it and what would happen if I didn't.
I am not a great lover of Christmas. I just feel it has lost its true meaning along the way and it is all about presents and overeating. I do make an effort for Graham (who is 10), as he is still a young overly excited about Christmas despite the fact he found that Father Christmas is in fact George and I!
The "unreal" feeling has stopped. I don't know why. There wasn't a sudden "oh I feel part of this world" moment. I have had it 24/7 for nearly five months. However, I am lost to find out the cause. I believe that if I keep thinking where it has gone it will come back.
I am having an incredibly rough time with my mum. She keeps putting the phone down on me if she doesn't like to hear what I have to say. Hopefully Holly would have had the baby by then and it will be a real good excuse not to go to her home Christmas day.
It will certainly be hectic end of Dec, Graham leaves school 10 days before xmass which is far too long! The next thing is Holly giving birth and her coming to stay with us for a week or so, so I can teach her the basics. At 18 it will be extremely hard. She will be single mother quite hard and will certainly need our support. Graham's birthday is on 28 Dec.
We will be skint by January:D
I feel quite good at the moment and do my best to maintain doing the things I do. Life itself produces anxieties, the high and lows.
I can now drive my car, go to courses, do supermarkets and any other shops. I guess at the end of the day we all have to find a way to knock down the walls that prevent us from doing the things we used to enjoy.
That's about my news so far. How do you all manage Christmas time?
Take good care of yourselves
Love RuthXXX
I suggest courses, classes, CRUSE bereavement counselling, yet she says she doesn't need them. I cant make her happy, wanting to be proactive has to come from her in the same way I have had to do coming off tranquillisers.
I have been busy doing anxiety/self-esteem/CBT courses and am returning to work in Jan for two days. I am a legal advisor in custody and it is a pressured jobs and of course there are niggling doubts as to whether I would cope with it and what would happen if I didn't.
I am not a great lover of Christmas. I just feel it has lost its true meaning along the way and it is all about presents and overeating. I do make an effort for Graham (who is 10), as he is still a young overly excited about Christmas despite the fact he found that Father Christmas is in fact George and I!
The "unreal" feeling has stopped. I don't know why. There wasn't a sudden "oh I feel part of this world" moment. I have had it 24/7 for nearly five months. However, I am lost to find out the cause. I believe that if I keep thinking where it has gone it will come back.
I am having an incredibly rough time with my mum. She keeps putting the phone down on me if she doesn't like to hear what I have to say. Hopefully Holly would have had the baby by then and it will be a real good excuse not to go to her home Christmas day.
It will certainly be hectic end of Dec, Graham leaves school 10 days before xmass which is far too long! The next thing is Holly giving birth and her coming to stay with us for a week or so, so I can teach her the basics. At 18 it will be extremely hard. She will be single mother quite hard and will certainly need our support. Graham's birthday is on 28 Dec.
We will be skint by January:D
I feel quite good at the moment and do my best to maintain doing the things I do. Life itself produces anxieties, the high and lows.
I can now drive my car, go to courses, do supermarkets and any other shops. I guess at the end of the day we all have to find a way to knock down the walls that prevent us from doing the things we used to enjoy.
That's about my news so far. How do you all manage Christmas time?
Take good care of yourselves
Love RuthXXX
I suggest courses, classes, CRUSE bereavement counselling, yet she says she doesn't need them. I cant make her happy, wanting to be proactive has to come from her in the same way I have had to do coming off tranquillisers.