Round in circles
10-04-14, 10:48
Last night was another bad night. I must have gotten two sleeps lasting an hour each. The rest of the night was spent trying all sorts of tricks to try and get to sleep. I was supposed to go for a skating lesson this afternoon but I've had to cancel as I'm so exhausted I can't even see straight. I guess I'm meant to stay up in the hope I can sleep tonight. I have no idea how I'll manage that.
So much stress.. I'm not coping at all, and mental health discharged me back to the GP so I'm on my own there. I'm falling apart on the inside so it's no wonder my sleep has been messed up this whole year so far. I get one, maybe two weeks of normal then it goes out. It's been getting worse and now it's full on insomnia again. I was trying to avoid getting here again. I had a really bad spell last year where I hardly slept in a month. I can't go back to that.
I just feel so worn out both mentally and physically. I know.. Lack of sleep can do that. It seems like no matter how tired I get, the off switch for consciousness just won't flip to off. Last year I'd be so tired I couldn't even open my eyelids and yet I couldn't drop off. I'm so worried I'm heading back there. I can't cope with this at all. I just want it to be normal. How can I get my life back when I can't sleep at the right time?
Sorry.. Mouth running because I'm so stressed. Just so, so tired.
So much stress.. I'm not coping at all, and mental health discharged me back to the GP so I'm on my own there. I'm falling apart on the inside so it's no wonder my sleep has been messed up this whole year so far. I get one, maybe two weeks of normal then it goes out. It's been getting worse and now it's full on insomnia again. I was trying to avoid getting here again. I had a really bad spell last year where I hardly slept in a month. I can't go back to that.
I just feel so worn out both mentally and physically. I know.. Lack of sleep can do that. It seems like no matter how tired I get, the off switch for consciousness just won't flip to off. Last year I'd be so tired I couldn't even open my eyelids and yet I couldn't drop off. I'm so worried I'm heading back there. I can't cope with this at all. I just want it to be normal. How can I get my life back when I can't sleep at the right time?
Sorry.. Mouth running because I'm so stressed. Just so, so tired.