HotTea
11-04-14, 18:00
Hi, this is my first post here after reading threads on this forum non stop for two weeks.
Iv had such a bad time of it and I can't stop googling.
Just looking for people to talk to. And someone to tell me, it will get better.
Two weeks ago I had a massive panic attack on the Sunday. It took everything out of me, and I was petrified of having another one all week. I didn't eat, I kept being sick, I felt constantly sick.
I got so bad I rang the doctors (which is what the anxiety started for) and they prescribed me some Beta Blockers.
I thought things were improving, I even managed to start eating a bit and then Tue I had a panic attack at the shop, because the doctors was in the same village I had got it into my head if I went there freaking out, they would make me better.
How wrong was I. The doctor prescribed me some Anyi Depressants, despite me saying I wasn't depressed, I'm just fed up of feeling sick and panicking all the time.
I took one on Wed and my god I thought I was going to die, I have NEVER felt so ill in my life.
So I rang back after a very sleepless night Thur and said under no circumstances was I taking one of those again.
I feel like I have now accepted I will have panic attacks, and I would rather than feel like that ever again.
But I can't stop obsessing over google.
I'm terrified of getting depression, what started as a cancer/health anxiety has now progressed into me being obsessed I will get depression and not be able to leave my house, look after my kids, wanna kill myself.
Every spare minute I'm sat on here googling differences between anxiety and depression, googling natural remedies. Hoping I wake up tomorrow and feel happier.
I'm driving myself insane. Help me :weep:
Iv had such a bad time of it and I can't stop googling.
Just looking for people to talk to. And someone to tell me, it will get better.
Two weeks ago I had a massive panic attack on the Sunday. It took everything out of me, and I was petrified of having another one all week. I didn't eat, I kept being sick, I felt constantly sick.
I got so bad I rang the doctors (which is what the anxiety started for) and they prescribed me some Beta Blockers.
I thought things were improving, I even managed to start eating a bit and then Tue I had a panic attack at the shop, because the doctors was in the same village I had got it into my head if I went there freaking out, they would make me better.
How wrong was I. The doctor prescribed me some Anyi Depressants, despite me saying I wasn't depressed, I'm just fed up of feeling sick and panicking all the time.
I took one on Wed and my god I thought I was going to die, I have NEVER felt so ill in my life.
So I rang back after a very sleepless night Thur and said under no circumstances was I taking one of those again.
I feel like I have now accepted I will have panic attacks, and I would rather than feel like that ever again.
But I can't stop obsessing over google.
I'm terrified of getting depression, what started as a cancer/health anxiety has now progressed into me being obsessed I will get depression and not be able to leave my house, look after my kids, wanna kill myself.
Every spare minute I'm sat on here googling differences between anxiety and depression, googling natural remedies. Hoping I wake up tomorrow and feel happier.
I'm driving myself insane. Help me :weep: