Samanthasarah
03-12-06, 13:27
Hello Everyone, Im Samantha/18/England.
Firstly i would like to stress how happy i am to finally find a site which im hoping will be able to give me some useful information on my anxiety.
It all started when i was nine and was almost dragged into a car with a known paedophile in my area, after that horrible experiance i could never leave my home alone and would panic if was left alone. As i got older it happened less often, until May 2004 when my and my fiance were round his parents house. We had been discussing that night our plans of moving into our new house, for me it was a really nice evening as i felt we all got on really well and i was happy chatting about mine and matts plans. That night me and my fiance went back to our flat and i remember scolding him for leaving his mobile at work (we had no landline) The next day was a typical Monday morning and i was sat at my desk answering calls as usual, wen matt rings me to say that hes just been told by his mum that his dad has died. I was in shock and rushed round his mums, turns out his dad had died half an hr after we had left and that his mum cud not get hold of matt to tell him. He had a blood clot which caused a heart attack. Because his dad died so suddenly and without warning i guess it started to make me worry about my own health. Ever since that day iv been having panic attacks up to four times a day. I feel i can not control it and for the last couple of months i have pretty much turned to alcohol. I have tried so much with no result.
Firstly i would like to stress how happy i am to finally find a site which im hoping will be able to give me some useful information on my anxiety.
It all started when i was nine and was almost dragged into a car with a known paedophile in my area, after that horrible experiance i could never leave my home alone and would panic if was left alone. As i got older it happened less often, until May 2004 when my and my fiance were round his parents house. We had been discussing that night our plans of moving into our new house, for me it was a really nice evening as i felt we all got on really well and i was happy chatting about mine and matts plans. That night me and my fiance went back to our flat and i remember scolding him for leaving his mobile at work (we had no landline) The next day was a typical Monday morning and i was sat at my desk answering calls as usual, wen matt rings me to say that hes just been told by his mum that his dad has died. I was in shock and rushed round his mums, turns out his dad had died half an hr after we had left and that his mum cud not get hold of matt to tell him. He had a blood clot which caused a heart attack. Because his dad died so suddenly and without warning i guess it started to make me worry about my own health. Ever since that day iv been having panic attacks up to four times a day. I feel i can not control it and for the last couple of months i have pretty much turned to alcohol. I have tried so much with no result.