NE21 worrier
13-04-14, 23:52
Hello everyone,
I joined this forum a while ago to help me cope with panic attacks which often happened when I went away with friends or something at work changed.
This forum has been brilliant as I'm actually quite adept at understanding panic attacks now - I get the fight or flight response and the first fear/second fear conundrum to which the excellent Claire Weekes refers.
Indeed, I have made great progress - I've retained my job (despite a two-month anxiety sickness absence last year) and been active among my group of friends. I will soon move on from my current job to another position which will hopefully suit me better.
Nevertheless, at 30, I still live with my parents, and my mum in particular still does much to help me in terms of food and ironing/washing clothes.
The former is particular worry of mine, especially in relation to alcohol. My parents were away last week and I failed to eat in a structured way at all, relying on fast food and missing meals (i.e. I would not have eaten properly on my own).
Weekends also have a theme of me missing out on meals in favour of a few beers to the extent that I genuinely think I probably have a drink problem.
An even more addictive problem which I know I most definitely have is bizarre porn. This is even difficult to type but, as bizarre as it is, I get turned on by femdom (i.e. dominatrices and the like) and submissive males in an extreme way so that, as an unconfident and fairly camp guy, I'm not even sure of my sexuality.
I have touched on the former with psychologists in CBT but never on the latter. I am not taking any anti-depressant medication or seeing a therapist at the moment - and yet I often feel utterly disgusted with myself.
Peter :weep:
I joined this forum a while ago to help me cope with panic attacks which often happened when I went away with friends or something at work changed.
This forum has been brilliant as I'm actually quite adept at understanding panic attacks now - I get the fight or flight response and the first fear/second fear conundrum to which the excellent Claire Weekes refers.
Indeed, I have made great progress - I've retained my job (despite a two-month anxiety sickness absence last year) and been active among my group of friends. I will soon move on from my current job to another position which will hopefully suit me better.
Nevertheless, at 30, I still live with my parents, and my mum in particular still does much to help me in terms of food and ironing/washing clothes.
The former is particular worry of mine, especially in relation to alcohol. My parents were away last week and I failed to eat in a structured way at all, relying on fast food and missing meals (i.e. I would not have eaten properly on my own).
Weekends also have a theme of me missing out on meals in favour of a few beers to the extent that I genuinely think I probably have a drink problem.
An even more addictive problem which I know I most definitely have is bizarre porn. This is even difficult to type but, as bizarre as it is, I get turned on by femdom (i.e. dominatrices and the like) and submissive males in an extreme way so that, as an unconfident and fairly camp guy, I'm not even sure of my sexuality.
I have touched on the former with psychologists in CBT but never on the latter. I am not taking any anti-depressant medication or seeing a therapist at the moment - and yet I often feel utterly disgusted with myself.
Peter :weep: