nagenod
16-04-14, 09:52
Hello, I just want to try and describe whats going on in my head...
Im a 27 year old male, from the age of 17-21ish I was a happy go lucky, bubbly fella, I drank a lot though, I think that started to try and boost my confidence with women and improve sexual performance! At that age I also used a fair bit of cocaine, ketamine, cannabis, pills etc...
Anyway, I never had problems with anxiety until one day in Greece with my soon to be girlfriend, I suffered from premature ejaculation, this had never happened to me before but since that day it has stuck with me ever since. I suffered with it ever since that day, and I think that was because I was worrying about it. That worry has now turned into constant torment in my head. It is in my head morning, noon and night, sat there talking to me as I try and work, I find myself shouting at myself to shut up!
but it doesn't work. From that anxiety, has stemmed allsorts of feelings. Some days are worse than others. if ive drank the night before, the following couple of days the anxiety can be bad. Some days I cross the road if there are people coming towards me as I don't want them to see me. When I talk to people a voice in my head seems to say "shutup, your so boring, you've got nothing interesting to say"
Its as if I feel as though im having to control two brains, one brain to go about my daily business of work, while the other is constantly there bad mouthing me.
Some days im fine though, I just wish it was all the time.
I tried to explain to my GP a few months ago, she has sent for me to go to Cognitive sexual behavioural therapy, but its a 12 month waiting list and im still waiting.
She seemed to think that if I resolve the initial problem of the ejaculation then my anxieties would lessen.
Anyway, sorry for going on but id like to speak to people who might be in the same boat...cheers:)
Im a 27 year old male, from the age of 17-21ish I was a happy go lucky, bubbly fella, I drank a lot though, I think that started to try and boost my confidence with women and improve sexual performance! At that age I also used a fair bit of cocaine, ketamine, cannabis, pills etc...
Anyway, I never had problems with anxiety until one day in Greece with my soon to be girlfriend, I suffered from premature ejaculation, this had never happened to me before but since that day it has stuck with me ever since. I suffered with it ever since that day, and I think that was because I was worrying about it. That worry has now turned into constant torment in my head. It is in my head morning, noon and night, sat there talking to me as I try and work, I find myself shouting at myself to shut up!
but it doesn't work. From that anxiety, has stemmed allsorts of feelings. Some days are worse than others. if ive drank the night before, the following couple of days the anxiety can be bad. Some days I cross the road if there are people coming towards me as I don't want them to see me. When I talk to people a voice in my head seems to say "shutup, your so boring, you've got nothing interesting to say"
Its as if I feel as though im having to control two brains, one brain to go about my daily business of work, while the other is constantly there bad mouthing me.
Some days im fine though, I just wish it was all the time.
I tried to explain to my GP a few months ago, she has sent for me to go to Cognitive sexual behavioural therapy, but its a 12 month waiting list and im still waiting.
She seemed to think that if I resolve the initial problem of the ejaculation then my anxieties would lessen.
Anyway, sorry for going on but id like to speak to people who might be in the same boat...cheers:)