hatsunemiku
22-04-14, 16:00
Hi guys I'm new around here :)
I have to get a few things off my chest.. bare with me..
I'm 21, I have suffered from depression since I was 13 which developed into anxiety when I was 18.
Over the past two years I have been working in retail which I found incredibly hard and stressful. Last month I quit after a change in management as I was crying every other day, having panic attacks in work and could not cope any longer.
Since then I've been looking for a new job but I find it very difficult. I am afraid of having to work too many hours or being trapped in a bad job. The idea of working makes me very upset and stressed however I find it hard being at home at the same time. I become very impulsive when I'm bored and make poor decisions regarding jobs.
I'm applying for university and until then I have a particular job that I'm hopeful to get.. the waiting to hear back this week is killing me. I've been waking up so anxious and I can't relax all day until I'm with my boyfriend in the evening. This makes me think.. am I even well enough to work? If I get stressed out from doing nothing then how can i cope doing anything?
Today I was really bored and I impulsively phoned a nursing home asking to volunteer however when I found out that I had to wear short sleeves I freaked out. I have severe self harm scars which have always been a worry for me as I wonder.. what if I can't work in a particular job because they are offensive? I don't even wear short sleeves in my personal time, not even when I'm alone because I'm ashamed of them :/
Soo yeah this is me unloading my thoughts.. thank you to anyone who reads this.. I'd appreciate any advice on..
1. How to stop being impulsive when anxious?
2. How to deal with self harm scars in the work place?
3. How to stop feeling worthless whilst unemployed?
Thanks again :bighug1:
I have to get a few things off my chest.. bare with me..
I'm 21, I have suffered from depression since I was 13 which developed into anxiety when I was 18.
Over the past two years I have been working in retail which I found incredibly hard and stressful. Last month I quit after a change in management as I was crying every other day, having panic attacks in work and could not cope any longer.
Since then I've been looking for a new job but I find it very difficult. I am afraid of having to work too many hours or being trapped in a bad job. The idea of working makes me very upset and stressed however I find it hard being at home at the same time. I become very impulsive when I'm bored and make poor decisions regarding jobs.
I'm applying for university and until then I have a particular job that I'm hopeful to get.. the waiting to hear back this week is killing me. I've been waking up so anxious and I can't relax all day until I'm with my boyfriend in the evening. This makes me think.. am I even well enough to work? If I get stressed out from doing nothing then how can i cope doing anything?
Today I was really bored and I impulsively phoned a nursing home asking to volunteer however when I found out that I had to wear short sleeves I freaked out. I have severe self harm scars which have always been a worry for me as I wonder.. what if I can't work in a particular job because they are offensive? I don't even wear short sleeves in my personal time, not even when I'm alone because I'm ashamed of them :/
Soo yeah this is me unloading my thoughts.. thank you to anyone who reads this.. I'd appreciate any advice on..
1. How to stop being impulsive when anxious?
2. How to deal with self harm scars in the work place?
3. How to stop feeling worthless whilst unemployed?
Thanks again :bighug1: