Monkey001
05-12-06, 14:03
Hi,
I'm currently recieving counselling and on antidepressants to try and combat my anxiety. Most of my anxiety centres around my relationship with my boyfriend- I care about him very much, but constantly worry if I 'feel' enough for him, or if I see someone in the street I like the look of this must mean I don't love him and 'its not meant to be'. Its almost that i think its inevitable that relationships don't work out, so theres no point trying.
Its putting a huge strain on the relationship- one minute I can't believe how I can think these things when everythings going well, then I get these horrible thoughts pop into my head that I don't care for him and wouldnt care if he died, etc- which is absolutly ridiculous.
I'm not really one for self- diagnosis- but I've read a few things about OCD- while I used to think that this was all about ritualistic behaviour, compulsions etc- its the only thing that I can identify with to the way these intrusive thoughts seem to control my relationship and my life. Even thinking about the very possibility it might be OCD starts another panic- that I might be making excuses and it really is that the relationship is all wrong. thing is, whether this one works out of not, I'm sure this will be something that continues to happen in later relationships.
HAs anyone else heard of a similar type of OCD? Can you have OCD type thoughts like this? I watched the BBC documentary yesterday, and I didnt think that what the children were going through was all that alien to me- I could easily see myself in a similar position, although at least in my adult life I'm not aware of any such compulsions.
finally- As I said previously, I'm not really into self -diagnosis, its easy to feel drawn to a label or something that explains the way you are feeling- but do you think I should bring up the subject of OCD with my counsellor? I don't want to look like a hypochondriac or melodramatic, if it really is just simple relationship problems.
Sorry for the long post.
k.
I'm currently recieving counselling and on antidepressants to try and combat my anxiety. Most of my anxiety centres around my relationship with my boyfriend- I care about him very much, but constantly worry if I 'feel' enough for him, or if I see someone in the street I like the look of this must mean I don't love him and 'its not meant to be'. Its almost that i think its inevitable that relationships don't work out, so theres no point trying.
Its putting a huge strain on the relationship- one minute I can't believe how I can think these things when everythings going well, then I get these horrible thoughts pop into my head that I don't care for him and wouldnt care if he died, etc- which is absolutly ridiculous.
I'm not really one for self- diagnosis- but I've read a few things about OCD- while I used to think that this was all about ritualistic behaviour, compulsions etc- its the only thing that I can identify with to the way these intrusive thoughts seem to control my relationship and my life. Even thinking about the very possibility it might be OCD starts another panic- that I might be making excuses and it really is that the relationship is all wrong. thing is, whether this one works out of not, I'm sure this will be something that continues to happen in later relationships.
HAs anyone else heard of a similar type of OCD? Can you have OCD type thoughts like this? I watched the BBC documentary yesterday, and I didnt think that what the children were going through was all that alien to me- I could easily see myself in a similar position, although at least in my adult life I'm not aware of any such compulsions.
finally- As I said previously, I'm not really into self -diagnosis, its easy to feel drawn to a label or something that explains the way you are feeling- but do you think I should bring up the subject of OCD with my counsellor? I don't want to look like a hypochondriac or melodramatic, if it really is just simple relationship problems.
Sorry for the long post.
k.