mummyanxious
24-04-14, 21:03
Well I've been at my whits end for as long as I can remember. You're all fed up with me.
But I *may* have turned a corner. It's very early days so I won't speak too soon.
I tried another AD last week which made me groggy all day and second day without it I had the worst panic for a long while. That was yesterday morning.
But since my dr visit yesterday I've been feeling very motivated. I've formulated myself a plan and its keeping me motivated.
Last week I read 'at last a life' which has really made a lot of sense to me. So I am carrying forward the principals from this. Since that day I have been active, even if in a small form, every day. Last night I started the strength and flex nhs podcast and today I've done the couch to 5k in my front room (because I couldn't go out with two kids in bed and figured it was better jogging on the spot and up and down than not at all). And I didn't die.
Tonight I sat outside having a cup of tea. This is not something I've done for a long time, just sat and relaxed. I always hide up in my bedroom and avoid doing things I used to do to pass the time. But tonight I just sat and felt happy for the first time on a very long while. Certainly this year. I even smiled to myself.
Thank you everyone who has offered me advice lately. I may not looked to have taken it on board but I took in every comment that was made to me and acted on as much as I could.
I am hoping the good days outnumber the bad and I have a summer to look forward to with my gorgeous children.
But I *may* have turned a corner. It's very early days so I won't speak too soon.
I tried another AD last week which made me groggy all day and second day without it I had the worst panic for a long while. That was yesterday morning.
But since my dr visit yesterday I've been feeling very motivated. I've formulated myself a plan and its keeping me motivated.
Last week I read 'at last a life' which has really made a lot of sense to me. So I am carrying forward the principals from this. Since that day I have been active, even if in a small form, every day. Last night I started the strength and flex nhs podcast and today I've done the couch to 5k in my front room (because I couldn't go out with two kids in bed and figured it was better jogging on the spot and up and down than not at all). And I didn't die.
Tonight I sat outside having a cup of tea. This is not something I've done for a long time, just sat and relaxed. I always hide up in my bedroom and avoid doing things I used to do to pass the time. But tonight I just sat and felt happy for the first time on a very long while. Certainly this year. I even smiled to myself.
Thank you everyone who has offered me advice lately. I may not looked to have taken it on board but I took in every comment that was made to me and acted on as much as I could.
I am hoping the good days outnumber the bad and I have a summer to look forward to with my gorgeous children.