Brooklin
27-04-14, 00:48
Hi,
I would just like to say what a relief to have found this site :-).
I'm pretty new to suffering from anxiety and didn't even really recognise what was wrong until I joined this site yesterday. I lost my partner 6 years ago, he died suddenly and I didn't get a chance to say goodbye, my children were very young and for a good year after his death I had symptoms that I presumed were just my bodies way of dealing with the grief and fear of losing him. Since his death it has took me a long time to get back to any sort of normality. I avoided anything that reminded me of him, I no longer enjoyed cooking ( I cooked for him a lot and loved cooking), couldn't focus and my memory became terrible. I suppose I feel like a part of me died when he did and that so much of who I was had disappeared. I had huge mountains to climb around that time and look back wondering how the hell I got through the other side.
A few weeks ago I had a very upsetting incident with a very close family member and thought I was going to suffer a breakdown ( whatever that is ). The anxious feelings over the last few weeks have been horrendous and not knowing much about anxiety I felt I was doomed. I almost felt suicidal ( or a least had suicidal thoughts ) at the thought that life had finally broken me. Joining this site has made me see that I'm not going crazy and that I am definately not alone. Would really appreciate any advice on medication. I have taken a few diazepam over the last few weeks which have really taken the edge off the way I have been feeling ( I've only took them when needed and not every day). I.would love to hear from people who cope on their own without medication, or people who have found it impossible to cope without help. I'm down to my last tablet and am reluctant to go to gp again but also feel that I need to know I have a back up as i havent coped too well when the anxiety strikes, up to now nearly every other day has been a bad day. Thanks for taking the time to read this :-)
I would just like to say what a relief to have found this site :-).
I'm pretty new to suffering from anxiety and didn't even really recognise what was wrong until I joined this site yesterday. I lost my partner 6 years ago, he died suddenly and I didn't get a chance to say goodbye, my children were very young and for a good year after his death I had symptoms that I presumed were just my bodies way of dealing with the grief and fear of losing him. Since his death it has took me a long time to get back to any sort of normality. I avoided anything that reminded me of him, I no longer enjoyed cooking ( I cooked for him a lot and loved cooking), couldn't focus and my memory became terrible. I suppose I feel like a part of me died when he did and that so much of who I was had disappeared. I had huge mountains to climb around that time and look back wondering how the hell I got through the other side.
A few weeks ago I had a very upsetting incident with a very close family member and thought I was going to suffer a breakdown ( whatever that is ). The anxious feelings over the last few weeks have been horrendous and not knowing much about anxiety I felt I was doomed. I almost felt suicidal ( or a least had suicidal thoughts ) at the thought that life had finally broken me. Joining this site has made me see that I'm not going crazy and that I am definately not alone. Would really appreciate any advice on medication. I have taken a few diazepam over the last few weeks which have really taken the edge off the way I have been feeling ( I've only took them when needed and not every day). I.would love to hear from people who cope on their own without medication, or people who have found it impossible to cope without help. I'm down to my last tablet and am reluctant to go to gp again but also feel that I need to know I have a back up as i havent coped too well when the anxiety strikes, up to now nearly every other day has been a bad day. Thanks for taking the time to read this :-)