Amandala
30-04-14, 17:19
Hi everyone,
I'm sorry I keep posting but I am so fed up and confused and scared and I just don't know what to do with myself. I never even have 5 minutes of peace. it's always something! today my throat burns and feels kind of numb and all I can think about it what if I cough up blood? what if my throat closes? I admit I smoke too many cigarettes but was advised not to quit right now, I also have that terrible habit of forcing myself to burp all the time so maybe I'm just irritating the hell out of it. I just know I am dying, no one can feel this way all the time and have no relief even just for a minute.
I've been shaking all day, my mouth is dry, my head feels like its spinning. I tried taking a walk, I went grocery shopping despite driving is terrifying to me, my doctor tells me I have to "ignore the symptoms and act my way in to normalcy"
But I can't do it...I just can't cope. Then I just keep crying because I do everything my CBT and other therapist tell me to do and I just don't see the light.
5 months now of this hell. I am questioning if maybe I need to be sent away to a mental facility. I just want me back.
sorry again for my rant, I just need help
I'm sorry I keep posting but I am so fed up and confused and scared and I just don't know what to do with myself. I never even have 5 minutes of peace. it's always something! today my throat burns and feels kind of numb and all I can think about it what if I cough up blood? what if my throat closes? I admit I smoke too many cigarettes but was advised not to quit right now, I also have that terrible habit of forcing myself to burp all the time so maybe I'm just irritating the hell out of it. I just know I am dying, no one can feel this way all the time and have no relief even just for a minute.
I've been shaking all day, my mouth is dry, my head feels like its spinning. I tried taking a walk, I went grocery shopping despite driving is terrifying to me, my doctor tells me I have to "ignore the symptoms and act my way in to normalcy"
But I can't do it...I just can't cope. Then I just keep crying because I do everything my CBT and other therapist tell me to do and I just don't see the light.
5 months now of this hell. I am questioning if maybe I need to be sent away to a mental facility. I just want me back.
sorry again for my rant, I just need help