Stressed32
04-05-14, 18:57
Hi there, I've had HA on and off for about 5 years now. It started w an irrational fear of HIV after my hubby had repeat staph infections (thanks Dr. google). From there, it went to throat cancer, vulvar cancer, heart disease, and lately...in the past week...my son had Cystic Fibrosis, my daughter had Leukemia, and me...lymphoma bc of a swollen muscle in my neck that isn't even a lymph node, but is close to my nodes so it must be cancer.
We have all 3 had bloods done so rational me knows everyone is ok. My son actually had reflux preventing him from gaining weight properly. My daughter had a uti causing her WBC count to rise some (no where near leukemia by the way as it was right at 10k) and I let me chiropractor look at my neck. He confirmed, pulled muscle bc that is the side I always hold my son on.
So why can't I get past the feelings even though I know everyone is ok?! The pit in my tummy feelings won't go away. Ugh....I hate anxiety! Any tips on how to clear the fog and most past this? Why do I have to keep telling myself over and over that the dr isn't wrong, the labs are not wrong, the chiropractor is not wrong and we are all fine. What is wrong w me?
We have all 3 had bloods done so rational me knows everyone is ok. My son actually had reflux preventing him from gaining weight properly. My daughter had a uti causing her WBC count to rise some (no where near leukemia by the way as it was right at 10k) and I let me chiropractor look at my neck. He confirmed, pulled muscle bc that is the side I always hold my son on.
So why can't I get past the feelings even though I know everyone is ok?! The pit in my tummy feelings won't go away. Ugh....I hate anxiety! Any tips on how to clear the fog and most past this? Why do I have to keep telling myself over and over that the dr isn't wrong, the labs are not wrong, the chiropractor is not wrong and we are all fine. What is wrong w me?