idawmn
06-05-14, 18:18
I saw a therapist for the first time today and she said I had alot on my plate, no wonder I had anxiety (things that have happened in the past that I seemed to be able to handle at the time to some things that are going on right now).
I will be seeing her weekly for the next 4 weeks and also seeing a doctor from the clinic to see about some kind of med. I told her if it took a med to turn this 24/7 suffocation feeling, head in fog and chest tightness around I was for it but hopefully it will be just temporary.
While I in the waiting room a young girl came in with paperwork in hand like I had. I overheard her say, "I'm so tired, I didn't sleep all night." Yup, welcome to the club. I had a horrible night last night. I hadn't taken anything to help sleep thinking that since yesterday had been relatively decent (suffocation not so intense, no chest tightening) then I would be able to sleep reasonably well. Boy was I wrong.
I still don't understand this as I give myself pep talks, think positive, get out and do things, look forward to a new day, read happy books, watch happy things on tv. I keep thinking that miraculously one day this suffocation feeling will resolve itself. I guess I'm kidding myself. I think after 14 weeks I 'm too far gone and this requires bringing in the big guns now.
So I'm off to bed to see if I can at least get a nap. Thanks for letting me vent.
I will be seeing her weekly for the next 4 weeks and also seeing a doctor from the clinic to see about some kind of med. I told her if it took a med to turn this 24/7 suffocation feeling, head in fog and chest tightness around I was for it but hopefully it will be just temporary.
While I in the waiting room a young girl came in with paperwork in hand like I had. I overheard her say, "I'm so tired, I didn't sleep all night." Yup, welcome to the club. I had a horrible night last night. I hadn't taken anything to help sleep thinking that since yesterday had been relatively decent (suffocation not so intense, no chest tightening) then I would be able to sleep reasonably well. Boy was I wrong.
I still don't understand this as I give myself pep talks, think positive, get out and do things, look forward to a new day, read happy books, watch happy things on tv. I keep thinking that miraculously one day this suffocation feeling will resolve itself. I guess I'm kidding myself. I think after 14 weeks I 'm too far gone and this requires bringing in the big guns now.
So I'm off to bed to see if I can at least get a nap. Thanks for letting me vent.