Hypo
07-05-14, 18:25
I haven't been here for a while. I have a new job and things have been going pretty well and apart from a few niggly thoughts here and there I have been on top of my HA.
I can feel myself slipping again though. For those who don't know my ex husband (father to three of my children) died of cancer almost 5 months ago. Recently his widow has got into a new relationship and this has caused mixed feelings and then my children found out their granddad is dying of cancer too so as you can imagine it has been emotionally strained here.
My husband's depression has also been very bad so I have had a lot going on and emotional stress is my main trigger.
I was feeling a little shaky but then I started to read a fiction book, I had no idea this book was going to be about someone dying of cancer until I got about 80% through. He died of skin cancer. So for the last few days I have been worrying about my moles that my husband says haven't changed since I last got my GP to check.
I basically would love some tips on ways of nipping this in the bud before it goes too far again. I just had a really depressing thought about dying and leaving my kids behind. I don't want to go there again.
I have been trying to distract myself and also not checking myself. I have a GP appointment in a weeks time so I am not going to check but then mention my worries when I am there if I still feel the need to.
I can't let it get the better of me again. I need to be strong right now so I am just asking for some tips or maybe just some encouragement.
I can feel myself slipping again though. For those who don't know my ex husband (father to three of my children) died of cancer almost 5 months ago. Recently his widow has got into a new relationship and this has caused mixed feelings and then my children found out their granddad is dying of cancer too so as you can imagine it has been emotionally strained here.
My husband's depression has also been very bad so I have had a lot going on and emotional stress is my main trigger.
I was feeling a little shaky but then I started to read a fiction book, I had no idea this book was going to be about someone dying of cancer until I got about 80% through. He died of skin cancer. So for the last few days I have been worrying about my moles that my husband says haven't changed since I last got my GP to check.
I basically would love some tips on ways of nipping this in the bud before it goes too far again. I just had a really depressing thought about dying and leaving my kids behind. I don't want to go there again.
I have been trying to distract myself and also not checking myself. I have a GP appointment in a weeks time so I am not going to check but then mention my worries when I am there if I still feel the need to.
I can't let it get the better of me again. I need to be strong right now so I am just asking for some tips or maybe just some encouragement.