Tornup
08-05-14, 14:55
Hi All!
First of all, Im Tom, 26 Years old.
My anxiety.... Well at first I thought it was IBS! It wasn't that bad, but then as time went on, I kept feeling like I needed the loo, and panicking a little bit because i desperately needed to go.
then it progressively got worst, where id panic about going out in case I needed the loo and there wasn't one, this feeling was not just a bad thought, but was also from some bad experiences (all close calls Luckily)
When I did go to the loo, I suffered from bad diarrhoea, so I went to the doctors explaining the IBS, she said try some some IBS remedy etc..
Then i started discussing my symptoms with my friend at work, who suffers from anxiety and i started to think and feel like maybe, im getting anxious, and the this "mind->Gut connection" is causing all of this...
went back to the doctors and he has prescribed me Amitriptyline Which I am now on 50mg...
I am still feeling anxious, i tell myself I am OK, but for example, my partner wants to take our kids to the fair tonight nice and close, little walk away, yet ever since she has mentioned it, I have been stewing and getting a little anxious about it... I have wished it would rain all day today, and thought of any excuse not to have to go!!! I don't think I can go! she's pretty understanding, but finds it hard how last year we went to the fair fine! but this year it is such a big thing for me to-do....what I understand i guess! :(, but that leads to these thoughts about how she might leave (i know deep down she won't, and when I explain how i feel she understands and reassures me it won't happen!) and that causes me to get into a right flap! :(
I just feel guilty that she has told our kids we will take them to the fair(because last year was fine so why wouldnt this year!?). Do I just force myself into going? pull through on the anxious feelings (tummy cramps, feeling I really need to poo, lump in my chest) and not let them control my life, although I'm seriously concerned about lack of toilets at the fair!!!
TBH, I don't really know where to go from here, I was hoping these tablets were going to be some sort of magical fix! yet i still feel anxious... or do I think I am, and I'm just not "forcing" myself to go out more? should I increase my dose? go back to the doctors and say its not working, or do i need to try harder to make it work?
i feel so lost, and its ruining my experiences, Iv not taken my kids out to-do something really fun in ages! :(
thanks all!
T.
First of all, Im Tom, 26 Years old.
My anxiety.... Well at first I thought it was IBS! It wasn't that bad, but then as time went on, I kept feeling like I needed the loo, and panicking a little bit because i desperately needed to go.
then it progressively got worst, where id panic about going out in case I needed the loo and there wasn't one, this feeling was not just a bad thought, but was also from some bad experiences (all close calls Luckily)
When I did go to the loo, I suffered from bad diarrhoea, so I went to the doctors explaining the IBS, she said try some some IBS remedy etc..
Then i started discussing my symptoms with my friend at work, who suffers from anxiety and i started to think and feel like maybe, im getting anxious, and the this "mind->Gut connection" is causing all of this...
went back to the doctors and he has prescribed me Amitriptyline Which I am now on 50mg...
I am still feeling anxious, i tell myself I am OK, but for example, my partner wants to take our kids to the fair tonight nice and close, little walk away, yet ever since she has mentioned it, I have been stewing and getting a little anxious about it... I have wished it would rain all day today, and thought of any excuse not to have to go!!! I don't think I can go! she's pretty understanding, but finds it hard how last year we went to the fair fine! but this year it is such a big thing for me to-do....what I understand i guess! :(, but that leads to these thoughts about how she might leave (i know deep down she won't, and when I explain how i feel she understands and reassures me it won't happen!) and that causes me to get into a right flap! :(
I just feel guilty that she has told our kids we will take them to the fair(because last year was fine so why wouldnt this year!?). Do I just force myself into going? pull through on the anxious feelings (tummy cramps, feeling I really need to poo, lump in my chest) and not let them control my life, although I'm seriously concerned about lack of toilets at the fair!!!
TBH, I don't really know where to go from here, I was hoping these tablets were going to be some sort of magical fix! yet i still feel anxious... or do I think I am, and I'm just not "forcing" myself to go out more? should I increase my dose? go back to the doctors and say its not working, or do i need to try harder to make it work?
i feel so lost, and its ruining my experiences, Iv not taken my kids out to-do something really fun in ages! :(
thanks all!
T.