Katie_cupcakes
13-05-14, 21:02
I am positive that I have pancreatic cancer. I have never been more sure of anything in my life. I know I'm only 23 and how rare it is, but it all makes sense.
I started losing weight last year around august time. I hadn't put in much effort at all into losing the weight, but wasn't too worried as I had no other symptoms and had a bit of weight to lose anyway!
Around the same time I started losing weight I also developed panic disorder and would have several panic attacks per day. This all happened so suddenly and out of nowhere. I had had panic attacks since I was 16, but I'm talking 3 or 4 per year... Now I was getting 3 or 4 per day.
The past couple months I havnt been feeling right. I havnt had a day since mid march where I actually felt normal. 2 weeks ago I got excruciating pain in my back, along with nausea, no appetite, weight loss, thick saliva and feeling very thirsty all the time.
This has been constant the past 2 weeks and as well as that I am now getting lower back pain, pain between my shoulder blades and stabbing pains radiating from the middle of my upper abdomen across to the left of my upper abdomen. My tongue has a yellow coating and my fingernail beds have been gradually turning white.
Iv just had antibiotics for a uti, which I thought might clear up the yellow tongue...but it hasn't. If anything its worse. Iv read that yellow tongue is a sign that there is a problem with the liver...as is white fingernail beds. This could also be a sign of diabetes...which is a symptom of pancreatic cancer..and as my weight has dropped by 3 stone since last august with no real effort, I'm not overweight so I wouldn't be at risk of getting diabetes normally.
I'm absolutely sure that its pancreatic cancer. The pains get worse everyday. The stabbing pains in my stomach, the indication that I could have diabetes/liver problem, the weight loss, upper and lower back pain. Also...there is said to be a link between people who have pancreatic cancer being diagnosed or developing problems with panic/anxiety/depression prior to their cancer diagnosis...which would also explain the sudden panic attacks I began having last year.
Iv seen around 10 doctors who all keep fobbing me off with pain killers, anti biotics and acid reflux medication. Saw a Dr today who has booked me in for blood test on Thursday, so might actually get somewhere with the results of that...which I'm absolutely certain are not going to come back normal.
My point though is that with all the symptoms...nobody is taking Me seriously because my medical records have 'anxiety' plastered all over them...iv been told countless times that my symptoms are imagined. I'm not sure how I can imagine a yellow tongue and fingernails that are turning whiter by the day! And pain as intense as this is definitely not imagined. Its at a point now where I am so utterly frustrated that having anxiety is delaying a diagnosis I know I'm going to get and delaying the help I need (not that it would make much difference)
A friend keeps saying to me 'its all anxiety' and I asked what would need to be wrong with me before my symptoms were taken seriously and he said 'if you start throwing up blood'
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I need to throw up blood before somebody believes that I'm not well. I can never ever get I'll...because every symptom that doesn't involve throwing up blood gets blamed on my anxiety.
Anyway, blood tests on Thursday and I know its going to be bad, but perhaps I might start getting somewhere with this and can start the treatment I need.
I started losing weight last year around august time. I hadn't put in much effort at all into losing the weight, but wasn't too worried as I had no other symptoms and had a bit of weight to lose anyway!
Around the same time I started losing weight I also developed panic disorder and would have several panic attacks per day. This all happened so suddenly and out of nowhere. I had had panic attacks since I was 16, but I'm talking 3 or 4 per year... Now I was getting 3 or 4 per day.
The past couple months I havnt been feeling right. I havnt had a day since mid march where I actually felt normal. 2 weeks ago I got excruciating pain in my back, along with nausea, no appetite, weight loss, thick saliva and feeling very thirsty all the time.
This has been constant the past 2 weeks and as well as that I am now getting lower back pain, pain between my shoulder blades and stabbing pains radiating from the middle of my upper abdomen across to the left of my upper abdomen. My tongue has a yellow coating and my fingernail beds have been gradually turning white.
Iv just had antibiotics for a uti, which I thought might clear up the yellow tongue...but it hasn't. If anything its worse. Iv read that yellow tongue is a sign that there is a problem with the liver...as is white fingernail beds. This could also be a sign of diabetes...which is a symptom of pancreatic cancer..and as my weight has dropped by 3 stone since last august with no real effort, I'm not overweight so I wouldn't be at risk of getting diabetes normally.
I'm absolutely sure that its pancreatic cancer. The pains get worse everyday. The stabbing pains in my stomach, the indication that I could have diabetes/liver problem, the weight loss, upper and lower back pain. Also...there is said to be a link between people who have pancreatic cancer being diagnosed or developing problems with panic/anxiety/depression prior to their cancer diagnosis...which would also explain the sudden panic attacks I began having last year.
Iv seen around 10 doctors who all keep fobbing me off with pain killers, anti biotics and acid reflux medication. Saw a Dr today who has booked me in for blood test on Thursday, so might actually get somewhere with the results of that...which I'm absolutely certain are not going to come back normal.
My point though is that with all the symptoms...nobody is taking Me seriously because my medical records have 'anxiety' plastered all over them...iv been told countless times that my symptoms are imagined. I'm not sure how I can imagine a yellow tongue and fingernails that are turning whiter by the day! And pain as intense as this is definitely not imagined. Its at a point now where I am so utterly frustrated that having anxiety is delaying a diagnosis I know I'm going to get and delaying the help I need (not that it would make much difference)
A friend keeps saying to me 'its all anxiety' and I asked what would need to be wrong with me before my symptoms were taken seriously and he said 'if you start throwing up blood'
!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I need to throw up blood before somebody believes that I'm not well. I can never ever get I'll...because every symptom that doesn't involve throwing up blood gets blamed on my anxiety.
Anyway, blood tests on Thursday and I know its going to be bad, but perhaps I might start getting somewhere with this and can start the treatment I need.