Help!!

[Alexocelix]

Hi everyone. I'm having a bad time right now. I have been trying to recover from a huge panic attack, and have recently been feeling slightly better. The trouble is I seem to have really bad obsessional thoughts, which sometimes I just can't fend off. I'm worried I'm developing dementia or something, or that I'll have a sudden urge to go and do something horrible and wont be able to stop it. Because I had been feeling better this morning, these feelings feel so strong and they're scaring the crap outta me! I'm literally worried for the people around me because I feel like I don't know if the thoughts are mine or just intrusive and so on. I'm at work and I'm petrified.

[Alexocelix]

Hmm, to add to my initial post. I think I'm so scared of life after this panic that I can sometimes barely believe things, like just pure doubt.

[Nel]

Have a look at my reply on this topic hon, on how to deal with them. Harm thoughts are the worst, they are certainly the most distressing obssessive thoughts I've ever had.

Nel xx

OCD type thoughts? (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=15323)

[Alexocelix]

Thanks. Sometimes when I latch onto a scary thought (my mind seems to have millions) I wonder if it is really representative of me, and that does me in competely. Like I think, would a normal person really have this kind of thought? Sometimes it seems like my mind is actively seeking out my biggest fears and trying to convince me they're true.

[Nel]

<b id="quote">quote:</b id="quote"><table border="0" id="quote"><tr id="quote"><td class="quote" id="quote">Thanks. Sometimes when I latch onto a scary thought (my mind seems to have millions) I wonder if it is really representative of me, and that does me in competely. Like I think, would a normal person really have this kind of thought? Sometimes it seems like my mind is actively seeking out my biggest fears and trying to convince me they're true.

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The thought is only representative of what a decent person you are. You find the thought repugnant; if you were a violent person the thought wouldn't bother you at all.
OCD sufferers are the least likely to harm anyone. You’re in the driving seat, your thoughts will try to convince you other wise – but no matter how bad or strong it feels, you ARE always in control. Thoughts do not equal actions. I hope this reassures you some, as I know exactly how awful you must be feeling.

Nel xxx

[Alexocelix]

Yeah thanks. Sometimes I feel like I'm glad my digust is there, like it's gonna turn off and I'll find the thought acceptable. I guess that's the big fear, losing control.

[honeybee3939]

Hi Alex,

This is very common hun so try not to worry

Heres some links that may help:

weird thoughts
odd thoughts... (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5201)
Strange thoughts....Anyone else? (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5294)
Silly thoughts (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5694)
strange things! (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6461)
worried... (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=7323)
scared and down! (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=7389)

Scary thoughts
obsessional negative thoughts (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=3343)
what if I kill someone? (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=1972)
Horrible thoughts (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5280)
Morbid thoughts (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5482)
just needing some reassurance i'm not alone (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6532)
Feeling lonely (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6820)
What's happening to me? (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=7446)


I'm new! (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=3739)
am i losing the plot (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=1059)
Madness (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5154)
mentally ill?! worries (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=5335)
Its happening again ! (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=6094)
hearing voices (http://www.nomorepanic.co.uk/showthread.php?t=7332)

Love

Andrea
xxx




"If you have a worry turn it into a problem, you cant solve worrys but you can solve problems"

[Alexocelix]

Thanks. I guess the thing is, I can see how all these tendencies work. For me, I have reached the point where, you know if you were doing a compulsive behaviour, it can get to the point where you can't get satisfaction? That's naggingly how I've felt in my head ever since my panic attack. Maybe that's just fear left over from the panic attack, or maybe this that and the other etc. I could be just fine and not know it, but the fear of a catasrophy of some kind keeps me scared. I wish I couldn't drop my guard but I'm too scared to try.