I feel hopeless

[Alice1]

I don't know what to do.
I mainly just feeling awful and tired and my joints ache and my heart area aches feels like it's beating super fast and irregularly and my stomach keeps feeling wierd.

And now I'm waking up with my heart beating so fast feeling ill and like something awfuls about to happen.

And I've been to the doctors but I'm waiting to take tests. But no-one seems worried. I've seen so many and they all say that I'm probably fine. To just keep an eye on everything. That it's due to weight loss. That it's anxiety.

I keep second guessing myself. I haven't been completely mentally stable for a few years now. But I feel like there is something actually wrong this time and no-one believes me.

I mean you can't get all these symptoms when I'm perfectly happy and relaxed with my friends, distracted and trying to ignore how awful I feel.

How can it be anxiety when I feel so off 90% of the time.

I keep thinking it might be cancer or a heart problem or something else.

Or that I'm slowly dieing and any minute now I might just die.

Or even that just thinking I have something serious might cause it to happen

And this whole thing has stressed out my mother and I don't want to do that anymore.

And I feel hopeless and like I don't know what to do.

Surely I can't make all this up. I feel ill. A lot. I don't understand.

Someone please tell me what I can do.

[tuesdayschild44]

I swear I could have written this post. How long have you felt this way? For me about two months. All I know is there are moments when I forget about this evil anxiety, there fleeting, but I have them, hopefully there will be more moments and they will be closer together. Hang in there, keep going, we can do it! It's hard work but we keep going. Stay positive : )

[Worried 24/7]

I'm right there with you. I feel so completely hopeless and lost and I just KNOW I am dying and all I want to do is stay in bed and cry all day

[Alice1]

Oh wow, I didn't realise people would feel almost exactly the same way. That's so reassuring (although of course I wish you didn't and were happy haealthy people)
I've had it since about January time. And it got worse and then now better and better, but some things still linger.
I am making the uttermost effort but I have days and times when I feel so hopeless and negative.
What confused me the most is the vibrating-sickly feeling I get in my chest and an inside chill but your skin feels prickly and hot, like your getting the flu but you enver actually get it. Do you get that? It happens at random times of the day and lasts for a while then I'm fine!?
And achy chest pains that come on at random. I don't know about you but it doesn't feel like a panic attack, which I think I've had a few times.
I'm glad we can talk about these things together on websites like this. Thank you for replying.

[Jolly12]

Here is a great article/website about what anxiety and stress do to your body. This is on a daily basis, until you treat the underlying cause the HA.

1. Frequent headaches, jaw clenching or pain
2. Gritting, grinding teeth

3. Stuttering or stammering

4. Tremors, trembling of lips, hands

5. Neck ache, back pain, muscle spasms

6. Light headedness, faintness, dizziness

7. Ringing, buzzing or “popping sounds

8. Frequent blushing, sweating

9. Cold or sweaty hands, feet

10. Dry mouth, problems swallowing

11. Frequent colds, infections, herpes sores

12. Rashes, itching, hives, “goose bumps”

13. Unexplained or frequent “allergy” attacks

14. Heartburn, stomach pain, nausea

15. Excess belching, flatulence

16. Constipation, diarrhea, loss of control

17. Difficulty breathing, frequent sighing

18. Sudden attacks of life threatening panic

19. Chest pain, palpitations, rapid pulse

20. Frequent urination

21. Diminished sexual desire or performance

22. Excess anxiety, worry, guilt, nervousness

23. Increased anger, frustration, hostility

24. Depression, frequent or wild mood swings

25. Increased or decreased appetite

26. Insomnia, nightmares, disturbing dreams
27. Difficulty concentrating, racing thoughts

28. Trouble learning new information

29. Forgetfulness, disorganization, confusion

30. Difficulty in making decisions

31. Feeling overloaded or overwhelmed

32. Frequent crying spells or suicidal thoughts

33. Feelings of loneliness or worthlessness

34. Little interest in appearance, punctuality

35. Nervous habits, fidgeting, feet tapping

36. Increased frustration, irritability, edginess

37. Overreaction to petty annoyances

38. Increased number of minor accidents

39. Obsessive or compulsive behavior

40. Reduced work efficiency or productivity

41. Lies or excuses to cover up poor work

42. Rapid or mumbled speech

43. Excessive defensiveness or suspiciousness

44. Problems in communication, sharing

45. Social withdrawal and isolation

46. Constant tiredness, weakness, fatigue

47. Frequent use of over-the-counter drugs

48. Weight gain or loss without diet

49. Increased smoking, alcohol or drug use

50. Excessive gambling or impulse buying

- See more at: http://www.stress.org/stress-effects/#sthash.cXLaXrx0.dpuf

[clover1201]

I hit a good 75% of these at the min :weep:

[Jolly12]

Chalk it up to anxiety. The mind is powerful isn't it? I'll be praying for you and try some good positive thinking if you can. Your body is strong, it is fearfully and wonderfully made!