bubblygirl
09-12-06, 14:39
Hi everyone:)
Well I don't know where to start. I have been suffering from depression and anxiety. I started having problems back in May 2005. It started with little things so I just carried on as I was and pretended I didn't have a problem. Then in Novemeber 2005 I quit my full time job because I just couldn't take it anymore. I started working part time somewhere else and felt alot better for it. But by February 2006 I couldnt cope with that anymore so I had to quit. I'm 20 and still live at home with my parents so this caused alot of arguments me being unemployed, which didn't help me to feel any better. At first I was relieved to have left the job but then after a while I wished I had persevered with it, because with me motivation is a big problem. And when I have something to focus on I am more motivated. I ended up on anti-depressants and did start counselling but only went to two sessions and then stopped going. I still wouldn't admit to myself I had a problem.I then started to have a problem leaving the house. Then things improved, I came off the tablets and felt better. I then got a job living away from home I thought It might be a good way to get my independance back and I just hoped it would make all my problems go away. I was a high before I went and was really excited. I loved it there, but only lasted 4 days then quit and came home. I just couldn't cope with it. The old me would have coped but the new me just couldn't hack it. So for weeks afterwards I was very low hardly went out I was just so dissapointed with myself for failing and just kept thinking about what I was missing out on. Eventually I got over that and started looking for work nearer to home. I had an interview, got the job and was really pleased. But when I went to the induction I walked out after 5 minutes just couldn't do it and had to get out of there. I was devastated. But it was a wake up call for me and a real turning point I finally realised I couldn't fight it on my own anymore and I needed help. My doctor referred me to a psychiatrist and I am now on 20mg of citalopram daily, have been for 2 weeks. They've not really helped much so far but im hoping they will start helping soon. I don't go out very often and if I do it's a very big effort. I've lost touch with alot of my friends which is a shame.I think one of the hard things for me is having nobody to talk to who understands. My family have been there for me but they don't understand what I'm going through and they don't realise how low I feel sometimes. I discovered this site and was amazed to see I wasn't alone. So I would love to hear from anybody who has any advice or has similar problems to me would be a great comfort to hear from you Thankyou for taking the time to read this.
take care x
Well I don't know where to start. I have been suffering from depression and anxiety. I started having problems back in May 2005. It started with little things so I just carried on as I was and pretended I didn't have a problem. Then in Novemeber 2005 I quit my full time job because I just couldn't take it anymore. I started working part time somewhere else and felt alot better for it. But by February 2006 I couldnt cope with that anymore so I had to quit. I'm 20 and still live at home with my parents so this caused alot of arguments me being unemployed, which didn't help me to feel any better. At first I was relieved to have left the job but then after a while I wished I had persevered with it, because with me motivation is a big problem. And when I have something to focus on I am more motivated. I ended up on anti-depressants and did start counselling but only went to two sessions and then stopped going. I still wouldn't admit to myself I had a problem.I then started to have a problem leaving the house. Then things improved, I came off the tablets and felt better. I then got a job living away from home I thought It might be a good way to get my independance back and I just hoped it would make all my problems go away. I was a high before I went and was really excited. I loved it there, but only lasted 4 days then quit and came home. I just couldn't cope with it. The old me would have coped but the new me just couldn't hack it. So for weeks afterwards I was very low hardly went out I was just so dissapointed with myself for failing and just kept thinking about what I was missing out on. Eventually I got over that and started looking for work nearer to home. I had an interview, got the job and was really pleased. But when I went to the induction I walked out after 5 minutes just couldn't do it and had to get out of there. I was devastated. But it was a wake up call for me and a real turning point I finally realised I couldn't fight it on my own anymore and I needed help. My doctor referred me to a psychiatrist and I am now on 20mg of citalopram daily, have been for 2 weeks. They've not really helped much so far but im hoping they will start helping soon. I don't go out very often and if I do it's a very big effort. I've lost touch with alot of my friends which is a shame.I think one of the hard things for me is having nobody to talk to who understands. My family have been there for me but they don't understand what I'm going through and they don't realise how low I feel sometimes. I discovered this site and was amazed to see I wasn't alone. So I would love to hear from anybody who has any advice or has similar problems to me would be a great comfort to hear from you Thankyou for taking the time to read this.
take care x