Ollie28
21-05-14, 17:32
Hi,
Im beginning to lose hope now with whats up with me, i was told it was anxiety,
then depression, depersonalisation, quite frankly i just feel crazy!
3 months no since i had something happen to me that i still cant explain, i thought it was a panic attack but ive read up and up on them and cant come across what happend to me, il try to explain the best i can, it wasnt a panic attack in terms of a pounding hart, struggling catching my breath, pins and needles ect it was just out if the blue stood in the kitchen then with no warning or feelings of something happening i just started a worry panic kind of like if is you was aware your in big danger but with no physical sensations, once these sensations had finished i was left feeling like my soul had be taken, i had no awareness and no sort term memory or concentration.
Ive been like this now for 3 months and was told its anxiety - ive always thought my anxiety has come from worrying whats up with me!
Some days i can hardly function and im left feeling like im going insane! Some times i get so worked up and worried that my mind feels twisted and i have to sit and hold my head in my hands,
I still feel soulless! I dont feel me or i dont have any feelings or natural awarness!
Today i got up as usual feeling like crap, took my kids school trying to think forward the best i can then i drove up to see my employer a good 45 minute drive, i had to take a diazepam because i find they help me concentrate.
I find i cant concentrate much if i try to my head starts to hurt and i have to stop and take a minute, i got to my works and done my best to act normal and had a conversation with my boss and colleagues i struggled and after a hour decided to leave because my mind felt so tense and fatigued i couldnt cope.
The crazy part is - i got in my car and had a minute to cal. My mind then started to drive home - what happened next is something that has happend to me 3 times before ..... It was like a button was pressed and all my "old" self returned like my soul was put back in to my body! My head felt normal, my awareness and concentration was strong and forward relaxed thinking and i felt 100% me!
It lasted for about 30 minutes then i went back to feeling all soulless and crazy again like someone had shut me down, since i got home my mind feels all scrambled and crazy, im worrying this is something more than anxiety!
I feel like i cant forward think or feel like use to,
Whats happening to me?? Can anyone relate? Can a panic attack also be how i experienced it no physical symptoms just feel like your mind is getting screwed up and your left to try deal with it??
In honestly close to booking myself in to my nearest mental hospital!
Im worried why i feel how i feel and why i dont just feel my normal soulful self with my normal self feeling but have anxious thoughts! I feel scarily crazy 24/7!
Thanks for your help!
Im beginning to lose hope now with whats up with me, i was told it was anxiety,
then depression, depersonalisation, quite frankly i just feel crazy!
3 months no since i had something happen to me that i still cant explain, i thought it was a panic attack but ive read up and up on them and cant come across what happend to me, il try to explain the best i can, it wasnt a panic attack in terms of a pounding hart, struggling catching my breath, pins and needles ect it was just out if the blue stood in the kitchen then with no warning or feelings of something happening i just started a worry panic kind of like if is you was aware your in big danger but with no physical sensations, once these sensations had finished i was left feeling like my soul had be taken, i had no awareness and no sort term memory or concentration.
Ive been like this now for 3 months and was told its anxiety - ive always thought my anxiety has come from worrying whats up with me!
Some days i can hardly function and im left feeling like im going insane! Some times i get so worked up and worried that my mind feels twisted and i have to sit and hold my head in my hands,
I still feel soulless! I dont feel me or i dont have any feelings or natural awarness!
Today i got up as usual feeling like crap, took my kids school trying to think forward the best i can then i drove up to see my employer a good 45 minute drive, i had to take a diazepam because i find they help me concentrate.
I find i cant concentrate much if i try to my head starts to hurt and i have to stop and take a minute, i got to my works and done my best to act normal and had a conversation with my boss and colleagues i struggled and after a hour decided to leave because my mind felt so tense and fatigued i couldnt cope.
The crazy part is - i got in my car and had a minute to cal. My mind then started to drive home - what happened next is something that has happend to me 3 times before ..... It was like a button was pressed and all my "old" self returned like my soul was put back in to my body! My head felt normal, my awareness and concentration was strong and forward relaxed thinking and i felt 100% me!
It lasted for about 30 minutes then i went back to feeling all soulless and crazy again like someone had shut me down, since i got home my mind feels all scrambled and crazy, im worrying this is something more than anxiety!
I feel like i cant forward think or feel like use to,
Whats happening to me?? Can anyone relate? Can a panic attack also be how i experienced it no physical symptoms just feel like your mind is getting screwed up and your left to try deal with it??
In honestly close to booking myself in to my nearest mental hospital!
Im worried why i feel how i feel and why i dont just feel my normal soulful self with my normal self feeling but have anxious thoughts! I feel scarily crazy 24/7!
Thanks for your help!