ciccone-hassell
24-05-14, 15:28
i havent wrote here for awhile but kinda need to see what other people think , my mum was told yesterday that shes going to be needing open heart operation its instanly caused a total feeling of dread and fears about the furture now , i am 35 still living at home with my mum , dad , sister , my dad has been ill for many years and had heart faliure in 2001 which he nearly died and my sister has nervous problems , i have this terrible dread within myself that somethings going to happen to my mum and that maybe me and my sister may have heart problems to :( i had heart traces and ecg done few years ago due to chest pains but nothing came out of it , i am also in a relationship but feel nobody understands the feelings i have and also feel that i have no sense of direction of my life atm i strongly feel that my mum be ok but also have dread that she wont be ok :( i am costanly feeling scared and negitive atm i feel i have nobody can surport me or help me and really wish that i'd just goto sleep and never wake up as dont see life getting any better anymore :(