Bear&bug
28-05-14, 13:55
I had severe health anxiety for a few months recently. I was convinced I had breast cancer at 22- breast exam showed all was fine. I then became obsessed with lymphoma & checking my underarms. Numerous lumps all turned out to be harmless. It then switched to leukaemia! I was suffering my first fibromyalgia flare up (brought on by anxiety I think) & convinced it was bone pain due to cancer. I also had a bruise on my arm :blush: yep I know.
Anyway, full blood count & other blood tests all came back normal. A lump I was terrified of in my underarm couldn't even be felt by the Dr. So I decided "right, I have to stop this now." And I have actually been making progress. No obsessive checking for lumps whatsoever (completely forbidden myself to prod & poke). No scary googling. Things are looking up & for the first time in months I don't permanently believe I'm dying & about to leave my kids without a mum. A couple of tiny moles on my arm are slightly raised (I stupidly shaved my arms recently so probably to do with that!) & I'm being quite rational about it. I'm pleased with myself :)
But the remaining anxiety symptoms are sh*t! Lump in throat, tightness in throat, weird throat spasms/flutters, tickly cough, major breathlessness & dizziness. I'm pregnant & feel rubbish anyway. Though I do believe my symptoms are anxiety related NOT cancer related, they're still draining me.
What are your common ones?
Anyway, full blood count & other blood tests all came back normal. A lump I was terrified of in my underarm couldn't even be felt by the Dr. So I decided "right, I have to stop this now." And I have actually been making progress. No obsessive checking for lumps whatsoever (completely forbidden myself to prod & poke). No scary googling. Things are looking up & for the first time in months I don't permanently believe I'm dying & about to leave my kids without a mum. A couple of tiny moles on my arm are slightly raised (I stupidly shaved my arms recently so probably to do with that!) & I'm being quite rational about it. I'm pleased with myself :)
But the remaining anxiety symptoms are sh*t! Lump in throat, tightness in throat, weird throat spasms/flutters, tickly cough, major breathlessness & dizziness. I'm pregnant & feel rubbish anyway. Though I do believe my symptoms are anxiety related NOT cancer related, they're still draining me.
What are your common ones?