ArtsyJess
29-05-14, 02:54
Hi everyone, I'm new here and have been losing control of myself more and more. My anxiety has always been with me, I had one bad bout of it in 2006, and now am having another bad run of it. I have been super anxious since January when my dad got a stomach bug and as an emetophobe, I freaked out thinking I was next (I never got it). However, it seemed everyone around me was getting it, including fellow classmates. I'm in a physical therapy program, and my classmates whom I practice on getting stomach bugs is not very good for those like me. My academic pressures were immense this past semester, which only made my anxiety worse. I wasn't eating enough, and when I did eat I immediately felt sick. I was so afraid that everything I ate, even foods I love, would make me puke. My nervous belly soon turned into indigestion, which has just recently turned into heartburn and pain. I'm terrified something horrible is going on with my stomach, I feel awful and anxious all the time. I can't talk to my parents anymore because they can't stand it. I have to start a clinical internship next Monday for all of June, I'll be working 8:30-5 Mon-Fri and I'm terrified that my symptoms will plague me. I eat extremely healthy and can still not get rid of my symptoms (I have always ate extremely healthy). The only thing that I eat that is a trigger is coffee in the morning after my breakfast, but even lately I haven't had much because I've felt awful. Pretty much at a lost, terrified, super depressed and so anxious that as soon as I wake up in the morning my heart is racing like I've just taken a shot of espresso. I spend most of my days lately crying in my room feeling alone :(