Bexibear82
05-06-14, 16:11
Hello Everyone,
Where do I start? :)
I first joined No More Panic in 2012. I was diagnosed with anxiety, I had been experiencing panic attacks and had had trouble sleeping.
There was a lot going on in my life at the time, a lot of change and uncertainty.
My mother was diagnosed with stage 3 breast cancer. On that same day I received notice to leave my home of 3 years (The landlord was selling) and I was in the middle of a sticky relationship break-up.
I don't know why I never posted in 2012, I just read. I Read all of your lovely and inspirational messages of hope, just knowing I wasn't alone.
:unsure:
I went to my GP and ,along with some useful breathing and physical techniques to help the "Flutter" as I call it, I was prescribed Propranolol 40mg to take as and when I "needed it".
This seemed to work, and I would often hold off taking medication in favour of "holistic techniques" or "exercises" to try to control or cope with the adrenaline rushes myself... but sometimes I would have to back it up with the Beta Blockers. I also had trouble sleeping and would either wake abruptly in the middle of the night; some nights several times, experience nightmares and night terrors, and even the occasional sleep paralysis. Not fun.
So I was prescribed Zolpidem 5-10mg on those nights I HAD to be up in the morning, bright eyed and bushy tailed and having had a good 6-8 hours sleep
I also joined a gym and started to attend aerobics and zumba classes. This achieved the biggest and most positive change.
Now I work a desk job and although I am mentally challenged, I was stationary! Once I joined the onsite gym I would return home after work (And 90 minutes of sweaty fun) physically tired :yesyes: and looking good :blush:
Things were good for a while, life changed and I was taking less and less doses of the Propranolol. From 3 a day for 3-4 days in a row to 1-2 a month! :whistles: and sleeping without any trouble...
Now all that has changed.
Now I take 10-20mg Propranolol x3 daily (daily as in constant, my GP dropped the dose from 40mg "as and when" to a strict 3x daily of 10 or 20mg)
I have just started a course on Setraline 50mg once daily ... and to be honest I'm a bit frightened.
I've always considered myself Resilient
I've never considered myself a Victim
Now I feel I'm letting myself, and everyone around me, down
I am still on the waiting list for CBT and I am arranging emergency counselling sessions through my company (They have been so supportive) but the wheels are in motion as they say. So I just thought now was the time, to say...
Hello, My name is BEX :flowers:
Where do I start? :)
I first joined No More Panic in 2012. I was diagnosed with anxiety, I had been experiencing panic attacks and had had trouble sleeping.
There was a lot going on in my life at the time, a lot of change and uncertainty.
My mother was diagnosed with stage 3 breast cancer. On that same day I received notice to leave my home of 3 years (The landlord was selling) and I was in the middle of a sticky relationship break-up.
I don't know why I never posted in 2012, I just read. I Read all of your lovely and inspirational messages of hope, just knowing I wasn't alone.
:unsure:
I went to my GP and ,along with some useful breathing and physical techniques to help the "Flutter" as I call it, I was prescribed Propranolol 40mg to take as and when I "needed it".
This seemed to work, and I would often hold off taking medication in favour of "holistic techniques" or "exercises" to try to control or cope with the adrenaline rushes myself... but sometimes I would have to back it up with the Beta Blockers. I also had trouble sleeping and would either wake abruptly in the middle of the night; some nights several times, experience nightmares and night terrors, and even the occasional sleep paralysis. Not fun.
So I was prescribed Zolpidem 5-10mg on those nights I HAD to be up in the morning, bright eyed and bushy tailed and having had a good 6-8 hours sleep
I also joined a gym and started to attend aerobics and zumba classes. This achieved the biggest and most positive change.
Now I work a desk job and although I am mentally challenged, I was stationary! Once I joined the onsite gym I would return home after work (And 90 minutes of sweaty fun) physically tired :yesyes: and looking good :blush:
Things were good for a while, life changed and I was taking less and less doses of the Propranolol. From 3 a day for 3-4 days in a row to 1-2 a month! :whistles: and sleeping without any trouble...
Now all that has changed.
Now I take 10-20mg Propranolol x3 daily (daily as in constant, my GP dropped the dose from 40mg "as and when" to a strict 3x daily of 10 or 20mg)
I have just started a course on Setraline 50mg once daily ... and to be honest I'm a bit frightened.
I've always considered myself Resilient
I've never considered myself a Victim
Now I feel I'm letting myself, and everyone around me, down
I am still on the waiting list for CBT and I am arranging emergency counselling sessions through my company (They have been so supportive) but the wheels are in motion as they say. So I just thought now was the time, to say...
Hello, My name is BEX :flowers: