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07-06-14, 09:23
H there my name is Ben and i have been having a bad year with depression, social anxiety and self harm.
I was told by my doctor to give this website a try and see if it helps.
I recently been of work for around 9 weeks with depression and stress however since having time away from work i have been feeling a lot better in myself.
It has been 6 weeks since i last cut myself and have in proved my mood a lot.
At present i have got better at handling my mood and have tried to return to work. However i have come to realize that work is the main cause of it all and when i returned all the bad feelings came strait back.
I am now still off work and getting better but now my anxiety has got worse and i have lost all confidence and am scared to go out in case i am being looked at and judged.
A good friend of mine that lives down the road managed to talk me into helpng him at his work place.
I agreed ( eventually ) to help him a a volunteer as i am not looking for the money as i have a job but more to get me out the house.
He is at present painting work units on a scaffold tower of which took a lot for me to climb up as i didn't think i could do it at all.
I have been with him all this week and can say apart from the sunburns i really liked getting out the house and doing some work outside for a change.
I liked working with him so much that he manged to persuade me to go to his mma gym he attends for a work out.
This however took a lot for me to go as it was a new place with people that are fit and good at what they do.
I dragged myself to the gym with my hands shaking loads and mouth drying up
all the time. Once in the gym i met the master and all the pupils witch to my surprise were really really nice and understanding. I had so much help and motivation that i felt really welcomed into the group and now want to get back and have another go.
I am 18 stone so i am not fit at all but this is another reason i went. The master gave me 2 lesson free to see if i liked it. Between the painting and mma gym i am feeling sooooo pooped :) but in a good way.
Any way thats my story and i am trying to get full time work with my friend so i don't have to return to my old job. I also will be joining the mma gym asap.
I am still on loads of meds tho witch is kind of a downer but they are necessary for me to get better so i am willing to keep trying and pushing myself to do things i don't normally do.
I was told by my doctor to give this website a try and see if it helps.
I recently been of work for around 9 weeks with depression and stress however since having time away from work i have been feeling a lot better in myself.
It has been 6 weeks since i last cut myself and have in proved my mood a lot.
At present i have got better at handling my mood and have tried to return to work. However i have come to realize that work is the main cause of it all and when i returned all the bad feelings came strait back.
I am now still off work and getting better but now my anxiety has got worse and i have lost all confidence and am scared to go out in case i am being looked at and judged.
A good friend of mine that lives down the road managed to talk me into helpng him at his work place.
I agreed ( eventually ) to help him a a volunteer as i am not looking for the money as i have a job but more to get me out the house.
He is at present painting work units on a scaffold tower of which took a lot for me to climb up as i didn't think i could do it at all.
I have been with him all this week and can say apart from the sunburns i really liked getting out the house and doing some work outside for a change.
I liked working with him so much that he manged to persuade me to go to his mma gym he attends for a work out.
This however took a lot for me to go as it was a new place with people that are fit and good at what they do.
I dragged myself to the gym with my hands shaking loads and mouth drying up
all the time. Once in the gym i met the master and all the pupils witch to my surprise were really really nice and understanding. I had so much help and motivation that i felt really welcomed into the group and now want to get back and have another go.
I am 18 stone so i am not fit at all but this is another reason i went. The master gave me 2 lesson free to see if i liked it. Between the painting and mma gym i am feeling sooooo pooped :) but in a good way.
Any way thats my story and i am trying to get full time work with my friend so i don't have to return to my old job. I also will be joining the mma gym asap.
I am still on loads of meds tho witch is kind of a downer but they are necessary for me to get better so i am willing to keep trying and pushing myself to do things i don't normally do.