SarahH
07-06-14, 22:23
So this is a short story of hope for new people to NMP/anxiety to show how things can change and improve if you listen and take notice of experienced members on NMP...as I have.
You will see that I am an "advanced member" and I have been on the board since April 2013.
At that point I had just come home from an 18 day stay in a psychiatric unit having voluntarily admitted myself with acute anxiety. I will keep my story short. I was diagnosed with PTSD in 2001 and have had major and minor ups and downs ever since. I was pensioned out of the police force 4 years ago. Having believed I was in full recovery I came off Citalopram 2 years ago then went slowly down hill until my eventual admission to hospital. I was re-assessed and diagnosed PTSD/GAD/post viral fatigue.:wacko: Put on Pregabalin/lorazepam and came home.
I came to this board and wrote my story then read advice from senior members, was encouraged and inspired by others. I have never come to this board with "symptoms" that is what my Dr is for.
I have progressed then had little dips .I have withdrawn from pregabalin and started Citalopram again, with all the symptoms that go with it.
I have steadily re built my life in the last 13 months.
And now to my point:
In the last 3 weeks I have had 3 internal intimate examinations, internal scans, cancer blood checks, urine samples. It does not matter what these checks were for, the point is I COPED with them in a calm rational manner. I did not have sleepless nights or any kind of meltdown which this time last year would have been a certainty .:yesyes:
I have not been out of my hometown for 2 years (except a couple of day trips to see my 102 yr old granny). Last weekend after spending the day with my oldest friend I was driving down the motorway in the outside lane (with my 24 yr old daughter). I was doing about 80 mph and "BAM"!!!! My front driverside tire blew up.:scared15:...I mean it went bang and black smoke was billowing out of it. One of my biggest fears had happened... a blow out in the outside lane of a motorway!!!!!!! But guess what... it was ok...I took my foot off the accelerator, hazard lights on, into the middle lane, inside lane, hard shoulder, out of the car, climbed the embankment through chest high brambles in a summer dress and stood waiting for recovery. one and a half hours later we were on our way. Was it scary? Holy shit yeah:ohmy:...but I did it and came through it.
Guess what on Monday I am flying to Spain for a week!:yahoo:I can't believe it myself... what an achievement in 12 months!!!!!:noangel:
So if you have read this far then well done I obviously have not bored you too much..... my point is ALL of us can get through our problems if you just listen to advice and try all the methods suggested to you; medication, therapy, mindfulness, yoga, exercise, EMDR...these were the tools that I reached for throughout my recovery and will continue to use when necessary.
Thank you to all the great people on here who have given sound, constructive and heartfelt advice. A year ago I was a gibbering wreck...... now look at me (well I know you can't actually do that)... buy I am smiling:D...and getting on a plane:yahoo::yahoo::yahoo:
sarah
You will see that I am an "advanced member" and I have been on the board since April 2013.
At that point I had just come home from an 18 day stay in a psychiatric unit having voluntarily admitted myself with acute anxiety. I will keep my story short. I was diagnosed with PTSD in 2001 and have had major and minor ups and downs ever since. I was pensioned out of the police force 4 years ago. Having believed I was in full recovery I came off Citalopram 2 years ago then went slowly down hill until my eventual admission to hospital. I was re-assessed and diagnosed PTSD/GAD/post viral fatigue.:wacko: Put on Pregabalin/lorazepam and came home.
I came to this board and wrote my story then read advice from senior members, was encouraged and inspired by others. I have never come to this board with "symptoms" that is what my Dr is for.
I have progressed then had little dips .I have withdrawn from pregabalin and started Citalopram again, with all the symptoms that go with it.
I have steadily re built my life in the last 13 months.
And now to my point:
In the last 3 weeks I have had 3 internal intimate examinations, internal scans, cancer blood checks, urine samples. It does not matter what these checks were for, the point is I COPED with them in a calm rational manner. I did not have sleepless nights or any kind of meltdown which this time last year would have been a certainty .:yesyes:
I have not been out of my hometown for 2 years (except a couple of day trips to see my 102 yr old granny). Last weekend after spending the day with my oldest friend I was driving down the motorway in the outside lane (with my 24 yr old daughter). I was doing about 80 mph and "BAM"!!!! My front driverside tire blew up.:scared15:...I mean it went bang and black smoke was billowing out of it. One of my biggest fears had happened... a blow out in the outside lane of a motorway!!!!!!! But guess what... it was ok...I took my foot off the accelerator, hazard lights on, into the middle lane, inside lane, hard shoulder, out of the car, climbed the embankment through chest high brambles in a summer dress and stood waiting for recovery. one and a half hours later we were on our way. Was it scary? Holy shit yeah:ohmy:...but I did it and came through it.
Guess what on Monday I am flying to Spain for a week!:yahoo:I can't believe it myself... what an achievement in 12 months!!!!!:noangel:
So if you have read this far then well done I obviously have not bored you too much..... my point is ALL of us can get through our problems if you just listen to advice and try all the methods suggested to you; medication, therapy, mindfulness, yoga, exercise, EMDR...these were the tools that I reached for throughout my recovery and will continue to use when necessary.
Thank you to all the great people on here who have given sound, constructive and heartfelt advice. A year ago I was a gibbering wreck...... now look at me (well I know you can't actually do that)... buy I am smiling:D...and getting on a plane:yahoo::yahoo::yahoo:
sarah