pineapples
13-06-14, 14:48
Hi guys i'm new here! I joined this site so I could hopefully relate to you guys!
Most people think my phobia is ridiculous!
Well it all started when I got Norovirus in February. I hadn't v* for years I thought that i never would, but I did. I was really scared, I was panicking, shaking and I literally had goosebumps.
Then after that experience, I carried on living normally until as I was about to go on a bus to meet up with my friend, I had a flashback about the time when I did v*. I was thinking to myself, I hope I don't do it but then on that bus ride I felt really nauseous and eventually, panicked so much that I actually went off the bus and walked all the way back home.
Ever since, I have been feeling nauseous all the time, getting really scared whether i'm going to v* or not.
The nauseous feeling is also accompanied by a stomach ache, which can be quite crampy and very bothersome..
My parent says that its all in my head which I do agree with, but I don't know how to stop it. But they are starting to think i'm a HUGE drama queen.
I have had this for 6-7 weeks and its really tearing me apart
I've been eating less which is really bothering me.
I always try to tell myself that "I haven't done it during the 6-7 week so why would I do it now" but honestly I really do feel im gonna do it at times. I also try to tell myself that "its okay to do it and that it wont hurt me" but it just doesn't help.
I used to think that my brain was part of my team, not trying to go against me.
I really just don't know what to do and I really hate feeling so depressed at quite a young age. :weep:
I really don't know what to do. I don't want to take medication, but I do really want to get rid of this.
Please help and sorry for this big rant, but i usually am quite a bright person, but this is really slacking me down and making me close things off.
Most people think my phobia is ridiculous!
Well it all started when I got Norovirus in February. I hadn't v* for years I thought that i never would, but I did. I was really scared, I was panicking, shaking and I literally had goosebumps.
Then after that experience, I carried on living normally until as I was about to go on a bus to meet up with my friend, I had a flashback about the time when I did v*. I was thinking to myself, I hope I don't do it but then on that bus ride I felt really nauseous and eventually, panicked so much that I actually went off the bus and walked all the way back home.
Ever since, I have been feeling nauseous all the time, getting really scared whether i'm going to v* or not.
The nauseous feeling is also accompanied by a stomach ache, which can be quite crampy and very bothersome..
My parent says that its all in my head which I do agree with, but I don't know how to stop it. But they are starting to think i'm a HUGE drama queen.
I have had this for 6-7 weeks and its really tearing me apart
I've been eating less which is really bothering me.
I always try to tell myself that "I haven't done it during the 6-7 week so why would I do it now" but honestly I really do feel im gonna do it at times. I also try to tell myself that "its okay to do it and that it wont hurt me" but it just doesn't help.
I used to think that my brain was part of my team, not trying to go against me.
I really just don't know what to do and I really hate feeling so depressed at quite a young age. :weep:
I really don't know what to do. I don't want to take medication, but I do really want to get rid of this.
Please help and sorry for this big rant, but i usually am quite a bright person, but this is really slacking me down and making me close things off.