Anna76
14-06-14, 15:38
Hi everyone, I am new here and wanted to introduce myself. I am Anna, from the US and have severe OCD incorporated with health anxiety/full blown phobia. I have been in therapy for over a year and quite honestly, it hasn't helped all that much. I feel I have someone to talk to, but that's about it.
So here has been my history. My health anxiety began with the fear of dying. That's how I remember it anyway. I was so scared of dying and it just became an obsession with me. I began Googling ways people die and watching videos on youtube of people at the end of life. My therapist asked me to stop and I did...for awhile.
This is all in the last 12 months:
Then I became acutely aware of every heartbeat. I have always had tachycardia, but it became much worse than usual. Several times I found myself in the ER thinking I was having a heart attack and I would randomly drive to the fire station (different ones) to get checked when I thought I was dying. The end result was being sent to a cardiologist who did an echocardiogram, an EKG and a nuclear stress test. I was released and he said if I start exercising, it should help with the tachycardia.
Then I started having left side pain. I had a CT scan, an Upper GI, an ultrasound of my gallbladder, pancreas, and liver. I also had blood work. Aside from a small kidney cyst, it all came back normal.
Went to a urologist regarding my kidney cyst. Had another ultrasound and was cleared. He mentioned I had a cyst on my left ovary. Maybe that was my pain.
This may be TMI, but I had a weird "spot" on the outer area of my privates which my husband saw. Went to a dermatologist who assured me it was nothing, but had it biopsied anyway. Turned out I had HSV 2 and was put on Valtrex. Well, I was upset but it cant kill you and my husband (only been married a year) was tested and unaware he had it.
Now a new symptom has appeared.... I feel like I have "lumps" in my vagina. I think I have cervical or vaginal cancer. :shrug:
Oh.my.God. I am so sick of worry about this. Then someone told me that worry about cancer can cause it!!!!!!!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa????? Then I definitely have it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:mad::weep:
How do I overcome this? I have tried Jesus. I have tried antianxiety meds. I have tried therapy. NOTHING HELPS.:wall:
So here has been my history. My health anxiety began with the fear of dying. That's how I remember it anyway. I was so scared of dying and it just became an obsession with me. I began Googling ways people die and watching videos on youtube of people at the end of life. My therapist asked me to stop and I did...for awhile.
This is all in the last 12 months:
Then I became acutely aware of every heartbeat. I have always had tachycardia, but it became much worse than usual. Several times I found myself in the ER thinking I was having a heart attack and I would randomly drive to the fire station (different ones) to get checked when I thought I was dying. The end result was being sent to a cardiologist who did an echocardiogram, an EKG and a nuclear stress test. I was released and he said if I start exercising, it should help with the tachycardia.
Then I started having left side pain. I had a CT scan, an Upper GI, an ultrasound of my gallbladder, pancreas, and liver. I also had blood work. Aside from a small kidney cyst, it all came back normal.
Went to a urologist regarding my kidney cyst. Had another ultrasound and was cleared. He mentioned I had a cyst on my left ovary. Maybe that was my pain.
This may be TMI, but I had a weird "spot" on the outer area of my privates which my husband saw. Went to a dermatologist who assured me it was nothing, but had it biopsied anyway. Turned out I had HSV 2 and was put on Valtrex. Well, I was upset but it cant kill you and my husband (only been married a year) was tested and unaware he had it.
Now a new symptom has appeared.... I feel like I have "lumps" in my vagina. I think I have cervical or vaginal cancer. :shrug:
Oh.my.God. I am so sick of worry about this. Then someone told me that worry about cancer can cause it!!!!!!!!! waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa????? Then I definitely have it!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:mad::weep:
How do I overcome this? I have tried Jesus. I have tried antianxiety meds. I have tried therapy. NOTHING HELPS.:wall: