Juliebeenz
13-12-06, 19:20
I'm so unhappy and I don't know why. This has been going on too long now and I need fixed.
I've been on Sertraline for over a year and they have definately taken the edge of things but some days (like today) its almost like the tears will never stop.
To use a cliche I think my relationship with my Father has something to do with this. It's hard to put into words what he does but it has made the whole family's lives hell. He stops talking to us . . . won't look at us . . . just suits himself and creates an atmosphere. My poor Mother hasn't got the strength to leave and I worry about her so much. I can't visit because I find the situation so upsetting. I spoke to him today for the first time in months and it ruined my whole day because I just didn't know how to deal with it. I also got a Xmas card from him today signed "from Dad". No love just from and I don't think I've ever called him Dad in my life (I use another name).
I feel like my heart is broken; does that make sense? I'm so weak and I'm sick of it. My depression is starting to affect my relationships with other people now too. I just can't be bothered to make the effort with anyone.
I feel like I'm the only one who has this on their shoulders. Are there other people like me who just don't know why they feel so unhappy? I know people are getting fed up with me now always bringing them down. I can sense them rolling their eyes. I don't share my problems, especially the family stuff because no-one would understand that, I know they wouldn't, they couldn't possibly.
Anyone got any nice words? Advice? Assurance?
Juliebeenz[V]
"You can lead a horticulture but you can't make her think".
I've been on Sertraline for over a year and they have definately taken the edge of things but some days (like today) its almost like the tears will never stop.
To use a cliche I think my relationship with my Father has something to do with this. It's hard to put into words what he does but it has made the whole family's lives hell. He stops talking to us . . . won't look at us . . . just suits himself and creates an atmosphere. My poor Mother hasn't got the strength to leave and I worry about her so much. I can't visit because I find the situation so upsetting. I spoke to him today for the first time in months and it ruined my whole day because I just didn't know how to deal with it. I also got a Xmas card from him today signed "from Dad". No love just from and I don't think I've ever called him Dad in my life (I use another name).
I feel like my heart is broken; does that make sense? I'm so weak and I'm sick of it. My depression is starting to affect my relationships with other people now too. I just can't be bothered to make the effort with anyone.
I feel like I'm the only one who has this on their shoulders. Are there other people like me who just don't know why they feel so unhappy? I know people are getting fed up with me now always bringing them down. I can sense them rolling their eyes. I don't share my problems, especially the family stuff because no-one would understand that, I know they wouldn't, they couldn't possibly.
Anyone got any nice words? Advice? Assurance?
Juliebeenz[V]
"You can lead a horticulture but you can't make her think".