SoLost
16-06-14, 02:53
Hello everyone. I'm new here and I really need some advice.
Right now I'm mentally lost and scared and I'm afraid so much is happening to me I don't even know where I should post this.
For the past 6 months I've been using cannabis heavily to self medicate social anxiety and depression, and it worked for me well up until about two weeks ago. I started noticing that I was having issues with my breathing, I thought at the time it was breathlessness but I figure now I was just intensely focussed on it. Shortly after I also began to notice I wasn't really eating as much, I couldn't finish my meals and I just wasn't eating as much as I used to.
After I looked at these two things together I started to fear I had lung cancer due to my smoking. Then I thought it was just anxiety as I realised the breathing was a simple mental fixation, and then I lost all my appetite all together. Since then it's been back and forth between fearing that I have a tumor in my lungs and thinking I'm going mentally crazy with anxiety.
I stopped using the cannabis after these symptoms got too much, and ever since then I've been a total mess. I haven't eaten in the last five days, besides a few small things I try to force down me but I end up retching and dry heaving and it's hard to swallow. I've lost a stone in a few weeks. My mouth feels dry now too, although this is a new thing.
The last three days have been a blur of anxiety and panic. I've had doctors appointments for both my fear the lung cancer and the anxiety. I've been given Diazepam but it doesn't help that much, I can't eat and I can't really sleep either. I've had two panic attacks where I become so scared and ended up calling for an emergency doctor. I even called the Samaritans because I felt so bad.
Sometimes I feel calmer and collected like now where I can make this post, but I still don't have any appetite and I'm too alert to sleep. I'm scared of what's happening to me, I know tomorrow I will wake up and have a panic attack again, and I can't eat. The anxiety is all consuming, people tell me it's withdrawl from the cannabis but these symptoms and appetite loss started before I ceased using it. I stopped using it *because* of the symptoms. I even tried to smoke some more to try and feel hungry and it didn't help at all.
I don't know what to do. I've never felt this way before, the lack of appetite keeps fueling fears I have lung cancer or something is seriously wrong with me and I'll die. It's even scarier when I don't feel anxious or on edge but the appetite doesn't return. I've experienced cannabis withdrawl before too, and It's much, MUCH milder than what I'm feeling now.
What do I do? I know tomorrow I will just have another panic attack and I'm scared I'll get sectioned or doctors will stop taking notice of me and I actually DO have an underlying condition or something.
Right now I'm mentally lost and scared and I'm afraid so much is happening to me I don't even know where I should post this.
For the past 6 months I've been using cannabis heavily to self medicate social anxiety and depression, and it worked for me well up until about two weeks ago. I started noticing that I was having issues with my breathing, I thought at the time it was breathlessness but I figure now I was just intensely focussed on it. Shortly after I also began to notice I wasn't really eating as much, I couldn't finish my meals and I just wasn't eating as much as I used to.
After I looked at these two things together I started to fear I had lung cancer due to my smoking. Then I thought it was just anxiety as I realised the breathing was a simple mental fixation, and then I lost all my appetite all together. Since then it's been back and forth between fearing that I have a tumor in my lungs and thinking I'm going mentally crazy with anxiety.
I stopped using the cannabis after these symptoms got too much, and ever since then I've been a total mess. I haven't eaten in the last five days, besides a few small things I try to force down me but I end up retching and dry heaving and it's hard to swallow. I've lost a stone in a few weeks. My mouth feels dry now too, although this is a new thing.
The last three days have been a blur of anxiety and panic. I've had doctors appointments for both my fear the lung cancer and the anxiety. I've been given Diazepam but it doesn't help that much, I can't eat and I can't really sleep either. I've had two panic attacks where I become so scared and ended up calling for an emergency doctor. I even called the Samaritans because I felt so bad.
Sometimes I feel calmer and collected like now where I can make this post, but I still don't have any appetite and I'm too alert to sleep. I'm scared of what's happening to me, I know tomorrow I will wake up and have a panic attack again, and I can't eat. The anxiety is all consuming, people tell me it's withdrawl from the cannabis but these symptoms and appetite loss started before I ceased using it. I stopped using it *because* of the symptoms. I even tried to smoke some more to try and feel hungry and it didn't help at all.
I don't know what to do. I've never felt this way before, the lack of appetite keeps fueling fears I have lung cancer or something is seriously wrong with me and I'll die. It's even scarier when I don't feel anxious or on edge but the appetite doesn't return. I've experienced cannabis withdrawl before too, and It's much, MUCH milder than what I'm feeling now.
What do I do? I know tomorrow I will just have another panic attack and I'm scared I'll get sectioned or doctors will stop taking notice of me and I actually DO have an underlying condition or something.