looking4answers
14-12-06, 00:15
Im really never been a hypocondriac and although i have obsessive tendencies I have read the symptoms of ocd many times and its just not me..I want to get on with my life.Im pretty sure there isn't anything wrong with me and had several doctors and nurses that I know pretty much say the same thing..Its just concentrating on what i feel and not looking at other things..Although I have thousands of interest I cannot seem to concentrate on them.If I start looking at something other than medical symptoms I feel as though something will come up.Its really a weird feeling.I do break away from it and think of other things but they are getting few and far between .I wake in the morning and can't think of anything but whats going to happen to me today..heart attack ,stroke..? I don't know why I can't just say NO Im not going to do this..But its always on my mind..Even today tried to be normal spent alot of time doing things and got in the shower and got out and my right chest started vibrating and still is.. I know if it doesnt hurt then its probably nothing but cant seem to break my concentration on it.I wished I could just say .. to hell with it I dont care anymore but my mind wont let me..what can I do..I dont want to live like this anymore ..waiting to die...