lonelysongbird
19-06-14, 20:16
Hi everyone,
Thanks for taking the time to read this I could do with some advice.
I've suffered from major depression and just lately it's been slowly getting worse.
Over the past month I've spiralled out of control a due a number of reasons for which I'll name a few, work, home life and personal issues I'm in quite a bad way and my suicidal thoughts are in my opinion out of hand.
On Tuesday (2 days ago) I took an overdose of propranolol beta blockers and cutting a long story short after spending time in hospital and seeing the crisis team I was discharged.
I went home feeling even lower than before.
Yesterday I took another dose of the same medication but more in the hope of it actually working.
I tried to reach out to speak to my gp who didn't call me back but I just gave up and took too many (obviously not enough tho) and drank a bottle of wine in the Dr's carpark.
Anyway cutting a very very very long day short I spent the night in hospital wired up to a heart monitor and a drip.
I was told I was going to see someone who could truly help me but this morning after seeing the crisis team AGAIN they've sis hanged me with an appointment back with my gp tomoro morning.
I feel I'm losing it, I can't control the urges to end things.
I don't regret what I done yesterday I just regret the pain I put my partner through.
Please can anyone give me any advice on what to do?
The crisis team told me to call them if I feel suicidal again or if my partner is concerned but what would the do?
I just need to be somewhere where they can put me to sleep and reset my brain to give me a rest.
(I know it will never happen but we can all wish anyway).
Thanks for reading, I await you're replies :)
Thanks for taking the time to read this I could do with some advice.
I've suffered from major depression and just lately it's been slowly getting worse.
Over the past month I've spiralled out of control a due a number of reasons for which I'll name a few, work, home life and personal issues I'm in quite a bad way and my suicidal thoughts are in my opinion out of hand.
On Tuesday (2 days ago) I took an overdose of propranolol beta blockers and cutting a long story short after spending time in hospital and seeing the crisis team I was discharged.
I went home feeling even lower than before.
Yesterday I took another dose of the same medication but more in the hope of it actually working.
I tried to reach out to speak to my gp who didn't call me back but I just gave up and took too many (obviously not enough tho) and drank a bottle of wine in the Dr's carpark.
Anyway cutting a very very very long day short I spent the night in hospital wired up to a heart monitor and a drip.
I was told I was going to see someone who could truly help me but this morning after seeing the crisis team AGAIN they've sis hanged me with an appointment back with my gp tomoro morning.
I feel I'm losing it, I can't control the urges to end things.
I don't regret what I done yesterday I just regret the pain I put my partner through.
Please can anyone give me any advice on what to do?
The crisis team told me to call them if I feel suicidal again or if my partner is concerned but what would the do?
I just need to be somewhere where they can put me to sleep and reset my brain to give me a rest.
(I know it will never happen but we can all wish anyway).
Thanks for reading, I await you're replies :)