Icequeen
20-06-14, 13:37
okay so i've been on 30mg cit for 9 months... been going okay in that time, a few downs but mostly ive been on a nice level plateau ... about a month ago things hit rock bottom, i couldnt cope and my OH has now moved out... because of him, and my general way of feeling i am in absolute turmoil
i set my alarm for 5am, but rarely feel conscious until 7.15am, i physically cannot get up, no matter what sort of alarm i use or where i put it. it is getting unbearable now, and today i was late for work yet again.
my appetite is up and down, some days i dont eat other days i have jamtarts for my dinner and some ice cream for tea...
i feel tired come evening but rarely get to sleep before 11 at least. but when im asleep, im gone out for the count. normally im a really light sleeper though
until lunchtime most days im drowsy, my eyes want to close and feel like my eye balls are rolling in my head.
i get night sweats and wake up sweating sometimes.
i cat concentrate on anything that needs concentration...
im a horse rider and when im riding, im largely okay.
im picking at my hands badly, most my fingers are bleeding and so sore.
im grinding my teeth and i have a terrible habit of clicking my jaw and now that is agony!
sometimes i feel like a migraine is coming, my eyes go a bit sensitive to light but only if im walking around, like my body is telling me to just stop!
i have hysterical breakdowns several evenings, i just sit and cry uncontrollably, and the other night i was pacing up and down just not knowing what to do.
i forget almost everything, appointments, dog and cat food, mowing my lawn... just nothing happens because i just cannot think at all
i just dont know what to do though... at all... with anything anywhere....
xx
i set my alarm for 5am, but rarely feel conscious until 7.15am, i physically cannot get up, no matter what sort of alarm i use or where i put it. it is getting unbearable now, and today i was late for work yet again.
my appetite is up and down, some days i dont eat other days i have jamtarts for my dinner and some ice cream for tea...
i feel tired come evening but rarely get to sleep before 11 at least. but when im asleep, im gone out for the count. normally im a really light sleeper though
until lunchtime most days im drowsy, my eyes want to close and feel like my eye balls are rolling in my head.
i get night sweats and wake up sweating sometimes.
i cat concentrate on anything that needs concentration...
im a horse rider and when im riding, im largely okay.
im picking at my hands badly, most my fingers are bleeding and so sore.
im grinding my teeth and i have a terrible habit of clicking my jaw and now that is agony!
sometimes i feel like a migraine is coming, my eyes go a bit sensitive to light but only if im walking around, like my body is telling me to just stop!
i have hysterical breakdowns several evenings, i just sit and cry uncontrollably, and the other night i was pacing up and down just not knowing what to do.
i forget almost everything, appointments, dog and cat food, mowing my lawn... just nothing happens because i just cannot think at all
i just dont know what to do though... at all... with anything anywhere....
xx