emptyhorizons
23-06-14, 06:46
Alright, here it goes.
For that last few months I have been having these horrible intrusive thoughts, sexual ones about my mother. I constantly worry if I am in love with her or if I am attracted to her, which is strange because I am not homosexual nor have I ever been attracted to women. I've always had a close relationship with my mother and loved her and I always have been curious about sex, and I have never been in a relationship or have been in love at the age of 17.
I just don't know what to do I feel sick and I feel as if I am evil and there is something is wrong with me and I am always checking if I am aroused when I am around her. I never have had these thoughts before but one day it popped into my head and now it's a thought I can't seem to dismiss and it has just grown worse and I think about it everyday. I pray and I pray to God but I realize that he can't always help and sometimes you have to help yourself but I just need some advice and guidance and I also need to know what to do because I don't think I can bring myself to tell anybody right now.
Thank you for all those who answer.
-Also it seems my mother has thoughts that she can't stop thinking about sometimes.
-I also worry if these aren't intrusive thoughts and im just that disgusting kind of person.
Lately I have been contemplating self harm and suicide.
For that last few months I have been having these horrible intrusive thoughts, sexual ones about my mother. I constantly worry if I am in love with her or if I am attracted to her, which is strange because I am not homosexual nor have I ever been attracted to women. I've always had a close relationship with my mother and loved her and I always have been curious about sex, and I have never been in a relationship or have been in love at the age of 17.
I just don't know what to do I feel sick and I feel as if I am evil and there is something is wrong with me and I am always checking if I am aroused when I am around her. I never have had these thoughts before but one day it popped into my head and now it's a thought I can't seem to dismiss and it has just grown worse and I think about it everyday. I pray and I pray to God but I realize that he can't always help and sometimes you have to help yourself but I just need some advice and guidance and I also need to know what to do because I don't think I can bring myself to tell anybody right now.
Thank you for all those who answer.
-Also it seems my mother has thoughts that she can't stop thinking about sometimes.
-I also worry if these aren't intrusive thoughts and im just that disgusting kind of person.
Lately I have been contemplating self harm and suicide.