BreakingBad
23-06-14, 13:33
Im feeling really down and despondent after a difficult weekend and yet another waste of time at the dr's.
The dr thinks i have health anxiety and i cannot see it so I'm posting on here to see if others can relate to how I'm feeling as I'm starting to feel like I'm going mad!
Wind back to Christmas and I start having muscle spasms on my upper eyelid, not really worried but as it was getting quite frequent I mention it when i go to my optician in around january.
They diagnose me with Blepharitis (eyelid inflammation) and my eye prescription had deteriorated and they prescribed prism in my glasses for double vision. I hadn't even noticed i had double vision but it does not run in the family and I'm only 32. I had noticed i found it hard to focus especially when tired. They told me to mention it to the dr.
So around the same time i get an ear infection. The second that month and I mention to the dr about my twitching and eye issues.
I was under stress at the time and having a terrible memory so the dr put it down to stress which i excepted.
Wind forward a few months, I have since had three further ear infections, pins and needles in fingers and toes and various other muscle spasms have joined my eye. All as well as ridiculous fatigue which means I am becoming limited in what i can do.
So last week I went in about another ear infection. They don't usually prescribe me antibiotics but this time they did. Im allergic to penicillin which causes extreme life threatening symptoms so he prescribed clarithromycin.
The day after I felt very unwell but had a lot on, my friend came over for coffee morning and i could barely pour a drink as my arms and hands where shaking so much. I had real problems getting my words out etc.
The next day i just felt i had over done it so spent the whole day asleep trying to recover as i was desperate to go for a meal with my friends.
I woke up feeling better so dosed up and headed out. I felt ok all evening, not quite myself but relaxed enough until.
Out of nowhere my heart starts really pounding, i started to panic and headed for the toilet. I sat on the toliet slowly breathing through it not knowing what to do. They slowly improved so i came out and my friends who where concerned drove me home.
I felt really sick and dizzy after this episode and went home and tried to sleep it off. When i awoke the same thing happened and so i though enough of that and headed for the out of hours doc.
By this point I had become slightly confused and my speech was affected. The doctor took my blood pressure which was around 140/90 and 103bpm and said that was fine.
The thing is i tried telling him its not normal for me as my blood pressure is usually abnormally low. So although it doesn't seem too high its very high for me, but i couldn't really get those words out as i was in a muddle so he sends me home.
That evening my husband comes home and i can barely talk to him as my words are in a muddle etc. He sends me up A&E who put me on a blood press machine. it again was very high for me but they are not alarmed as its only just above the normal range. (Im usually just below the normal range!).
I sat there for hours and eventually it comes back down and my speech improves so they send me home and tell me to visit the GP.
So this morning i wake up with a headache and just feeling exhausted, my ear still hurts and I pop myself over to the dr's thinking he's going to finally refer me to someone that can help.
No no he tells me he's 98% sure its all anxiety and if i stop wording it will go away.
Thing is Ive suffered with anxiety/panic attacks etc and none of this feels the same. Ive have panic attacks and remember the feeling that i can't breath causes palpitations in the past but not a sudden pounding when I'm in a relaxing environment.
Im in a pretty good place at the moment aside from this and the dr seems to think it could be my body reaction to past stress.
I can't really get my head around it and wondered if this is what health anxiety is?
---------- Post added at 12:33 ---------- Previous post was at 12:30 ----------
worrying sorry not wording!
The dr thinks i have health anxiety and i cannot see it so I'm posting on here to see if others can relate to how I'm feeling as I'm starting to feel like I'm going mad!
Wind back to Christmas and I start having muscle spasms on my upper eyelid, not really worried but as it was getting quite frequent I mention it when i go to my optician in around january.
They diagnose me with Blepharitis (eyelid inflammation) and my eye prescription had deteriorated and they prescribed prism in my glasses for double vision. I hadn't even noticed i had double vision but it does not run in the family and I'm only 32. I had noticed i found it hard to focus especially when tired. They told me to mention it to the dr.
So around the same time i get an ear infection. The second that month and I mention to the dr about my twitching and eye issues.
I was under stress at the time and having a terrible memory so the dr put it down to stress which i excepted.
Wind forward a few months, I have since had three further ear infections, pins and needles in fingers and toes and various other muscle spasms have joined my eye. All as well as ridiculous fatigue which means I am becoming limited in what i can do.
So last week I went in about another ear infection. They don't usually prescribe me antibiotics but this time they did. Im allergic to penicillin which causes extreme life threatening symptoms so he prescribed clarithromycin.
The day after I felt very unwell but had a lot on, my friend came over for coffee morning and i could barely pour a drink as my arms and hands where shaking so much. I had real problems getting my words out etc.
The next day i just felt i had over done it so spent the whole day asleep trying to recover as i was desperate to go for a meal with my friends.
I woke up feeling better so dosed up and headed out. I felt ok all evening, not quite myself but relaxed enough until.
Out of nowhere my heart starts really pounding, i started to panic and headed for the toilet. I sat on the toliet slowly breathing through it not knowing what to do. They slowly improved so i came out and my friends who where concerned drove me home.
I felt really sick and dizzy after this episode and went home and tried to sleep it off. When i awoke the same thing happened and so i though enough of that and headed for the out of hours doc.
By this point I had become slightly confused and my speech was affected. The doctor took my blood pressure which was around 140/90 and 103bpm and said that was fine.
The thing is i tried telling him its not normal for me as my blood pressure is usually abnormally low. So although it doesn't seem too high its very high for me, but i couldn't really get those words out as i was in a muddle so he sends me home.
That evening my husband comes home and i can barely talk to him as my words are in a muddle etc. He sends me up A&E who put me on a blood press machine. it again was very high for me but they are not alarmed as its only just above the normal range. (Im usually just below the normal range!).
I sat there for hours and eventually it comes back down and my speech improves so they send me home and tell me to visit the GP.
So this morning i wake up with a headache and just feeling exhausted, my ear still hurts and I pop myself over to the dr's thinking he's going to finally refer me to someone that can help.
No no he tells me he's 98% sure its all anxiety and if i stop wording it will go away.
Thing is Ive suffered with anxiety/panic attacks etc and none of this feels the same. Ive have panic attacks and remember the feeling that i can't breath causes palpitations in the past but not a sudden pounding when I'm in a relaxing environment.
Im in a pretty good place at the moment aside from this and the dr seems to think it could be my body reaction to past stress.
I can't really get my head around it and wondered if this is what health anxiety is?
---------- Post added at 12:33 ---------- Previous post was at 12:30 ----------
worrying sorry not wording!