airwolf451
14-12-06, 15:02
hey guys,
sorry im back again,
woke this morning feeling all the pains and tense down my left side as usual, but ow i have this pain running down the middle of my right leg, my eyes are hurting, i feel drained and weak , and very light body and headed,
hearts not racing nor my breathing,
but something just dont feel right.
feel scared and alone, i live in a house where they ask how you are then move on before you have had time to explain, sometimes i dont think they even notice what im going through
everyone on here has been very kind and supportive , i would be lost without you guys.
a whole yr of my life has been wasted on this, constantly worrying that im dying or sitting in tense pain, i feel like a coward, afraid to move across the door, even afraid while im at home to. just cant seem to accept the last week that this is all just anxiety,
just want the pain to end and feel peaceful and relaxed,
dont even a have a place in this house where i can go to relax and have some peace and quiet, always people coming and going, music blasting from at least 2 rooms at a time, tv constantly on.
i wish i could make this all go away even for just a day, just want to feel normal and relaxed again, am i asking to much, am i being selfish?
where can i find peace, i have tried looking for it.
when i see myself now im a shadow of the person i once new, the light has gone, no more spark. doesnt even sound right when i speak, i get anx when i hear myself talk to people
have made some good friends on here, know lots about them, but can never seem to talk about myself.
sometimes even Tv sets my off, music videos that i would love to watch or programs can even set me off.
what have i become???
why is everyday a day when i think its the end.??????????????????
sorry im back again,
woke this morning feeling all the pains and tense down my left side as usual, but ow i have this pain running down the middle of my right leg, my eyes are hurting, i feel drained and weak , and very light body and headed,
hearts not racing nor my breathing,
but something just dont feel right.
feel scared and alone, i live in a house where they ask how you are then move on before you have had time to explain, sometimes i dont think they even notice what im going through
everyone on here has been very kind and supportive , i would be lost without you guys.
a whole yr of my life has been wasted on this, constantly worrying that im dying or sitting in tense pain, i feel like a coward, afraid to move across the door, even afraid while im at home to. just cant seem to accept the last week that this is all just anxiety,
just want the pain to end and feel peaceful and relaxed,
dont even a have a place in this house where i can go to relax and have some peace and quiet, always people coming and going, music blasting from at least 2 rooms at a time, tv constantly on.
i wish i could make this all go away even for just a day, just want to feel normal and relaxed again, am i asking to much, am i being selfish?
where can i find peace, i have tried looking for it.
when i see myself now im a shadow of the person i once new, the light has gone, no more spark. doesnt even sound right when i speak, i get anx when i hear myself talk to people
have made some good friends on here, know lots about them, but can never seem to talk about myself.
sometimes even Tv sets my off, music videos that i would love to watch or programs can even set me off.
what have i become???
why is everyday a day when i think its the end.??????????????????