bluesparkle
15-12-06, 07:50
hi...
wasnt sure where to put this as usual but just wanted to share with you...
i have been quiet on here for a while as i still find work and the family take up most of my time when i am still struggling with panic/anxiety.
but ive stuck at it even when ive had to drag myself there its been 10 months now.
anyway what i wanted to say was i have been struggling really bad again so i went to doctors and also had an apppointment with a social worker from the mental health team... and yesterday i had my first appointment with a counsellor. (i have been in the past but either not got on with the person or just didnt see the point).
i was sooooooo nervous , she was lovely and from the moment she first said something she made sense... and "bang" my life made sense.
i know that different types of therapy help different people as we are all individuals. she knew how i had been feeling for years... first the anger and now more recently the sadness and tears and the "im scared" feeling. we talked about my past(only as much as i wanted, and only one subject at a time) and it all made sense. obviously as most of you know its not that easy even had a nightmare last night but i dont mind as i know i am not mad and that my mind and thoughts will sort themselves out with alot of hard work from me. i would go into detail as im so excited but dont want to bore you all also off to work in a mo.
i know its not going to be easy and i know there are going to be alot of emotions along the way but i also know i am going to get better.
i said before that i will not let this beat me and i nearly let it...
the social worker helped me understand about my ocd and my rituals and after all these years they are getting better.... yes i want it all to be better right now but i know in reality that isnt going to happen and i still do some rituals but some i can let go and i know the rest will follow.
i do come on here most days and read posts and get alot of encourage ment and advice from here... so thank you so much for this great place. i know i keep repeating myself but i would have never got where i am now without it...
rach
wasnt sure where to put this as usual but just wanted to share with you...
i have been quiet on here for a while as i still find work and the family take up most of my time when i am still struggling with panic/anxiety.
but ive stuck at it even when ive had to drag myself there its been 10 months now.
anyway what i wanted to say was i have been struggling really bad again so i went to doctors and also had an apppointment with a social worker from the mental health team... and yesterday i had my first appointment with a counsellor. (i have been in the past but either not got on with the person or just didnt see the point).
i was sooooooo nervous , she was lovely and from the moment she first said something she made sense... and "bang" my life made sense.
i know that different types of therapy help different people as we are all individuals. she knew how i had been feeling for years... first the anger and now more recently the sadness and tears and the "im scared" feeling. we talked about my past(only as much as i wanted, and only one subject at a time) and it all made sense. obviously as most of you know its not that easy even had a nightmare last night but i dont mind as i know i am not mad and that my mind and thoughts will sort themselves out with alot of hard work from me. i would go into detail as im so excited but dont want to bore you all also off to work in a mo.
i know its not going to be easy and i know there are going to be alot of emotions along the way but i also know i am going to get better.
i said before that i will not let this beat me and i nearly let it...
the social worker helped me understand about my ocd and my rituals and after all these years they are getting better.... yes i want it all to be better right now but i know in reality that isnt going to happen and i still do some rituals but some i can let go and i know the rest will follow.
i do come on here most days and read posts and get alot of encourage ment and advice from here... so thank you so much for this great place. i know i keep repeating myself but i would have never got where i am now without it...
rach