NannyLynda
04-07-14, 16:25
Hi, i'm 51 years old, and for as long as i can remember, ive feared death, to the point that it has ruined my life to a degree. Im completely obssessed with Cancer, and as yet, ive not been diagnosed, but every ache, lump, marks, or even different feeling i assume might be cancer. I feel doomed. I had Therapy etc.. Phsyciatric help, Group therapy, Schycologists. But though some changes happen throughout my life, and i feel better at times, it never leaves me, and generally speaking, i live with it every day. Im exhausted. I have so many people and things to give me joy, and i do laugh and smile and enjoy aspects of life, but always shadowed by this black clowd that hovers over me, never allowing me to enjoy life in a natural way. Well thats it for now. Help and advice appreciated more than any words can say.