Female healthanxiety
14-07-14, 21:38
Thank you for reading first of all.... It means a lot.
I just burst into tears as soon as I got off the bus when I found a quiet part if my road....as I've just had enough of feeling like this and not to mention the scariness. I actually nearly got off the bus today for the fear of how I felt and just felt like I needed to run away from it - as ironic as it sounds.
As some of you may know, I started a new job a few weeks ago, which is great however am not sure if I really like it at this stage yet.
I have always had a car (I know this is unhealthy) and have always been able to drive to and from work. My car has broken down and I am unable to get it fixed as it's so costly (£900+) I've only had the car a year and it's on finance which I have to pay heavily each month for, for the next 2 years.
I now have to get a long bus journey into work (approximately 40 mins) and then walk for 15 minutes to work when I get off.
A couple of weeks ago I felt so great as I'm trying to lose weight with the help of weight watchers and have lost 8lb in 3 weeks.
I felt fantastic last week but then of course anxiety does not like you feeling happy for too long and them puts a stop to it.
For the past couple of weeks I have had the following symptoms which are making me so down and really tiring me out:
1. I have a weird pressure in my right temple which a sometimes makes me jump out of my skin when I get it, it feels like (sorry if this sounds weird) but like someone is pulling the inside of my temple up or there is a wormy/nightly feeling. This at times, also feels like a pressure in my ear and face (ears are fine though otherwise).
2. When I get this head feeling I feel hot for a whole
3. I am sensitive to 'any' form of exercise. I did boxing for 10 minutes at home on Saturday, and my joints in my fingers and arms feel really weakened.
4. I have this constant numb/heavily feeling in my left arm which won't go away and is making me feel scared to even go out
5. My jaw clicks on the left when I open and close my mouth and my jaw feels like it's quite stuff (kind if like my tense shoulders and neck)
6. Today when I was on the bus I feel like I have no air, my pulse was fast and I my throat was so dry, no matter how much of my bottled water I drank.
7. My throat continuously feels like it's half of its size and that u have problems breathing, I feel like it is very shallow and feel like my nose breathing don't help.
8. On the bus today, I had what I think, was derationalisation, which is HORRID!!! it's like I was thinking if something and then I panicked and for a moment forgot whereabouts I was for a couple of seconds until I came round again
9. I suffer with ectopics and they have been driving me mad lately, all I have to do is get up it get out of the bath and there there. I hate the empty feeling and the missed beats.
I have a fear if heart attack/stroke/blood pressure and I find it so hard to deal with when I feel like this.
I only slept for 5 hours last night so wondering if that has contributed!
I really just want to get on with my life - I felt 'normal' a couple of weeks ago, when I feel like my Anxiety should have been worse, what with my new starts, job etc.
Have a holiday booked for 4 weeks time and I really don't think I can do it neither.
I am so sorry it is long but I just couldn't wait to come on and pour my heart out.
K
I just burst into tears as soon as I got off the bus when I found a quiet part if my road....as I've just had enough of feeling like this and not to mention the scariness. I actually nearly got off the bus today for the fear of how I felt and just felt like I needed to run away from it - as ironic as it sounds.
As some of you may know, I started a new job a few weeks ago, which is great however am not sure if I really like it at this stage yet.
I have always had a car (I know this is unhealthy) and have always been able to drive to and from work. My car has broken down and I am unable to get it fixed as it's so costly (£900+) I've only had the car a year and it's on finance which I have to pay heavily each month for, for the next 2 years.
I now have to get a long bus journey into work (approximately 40 mins) and then walk for 15 minutes to work when I get off.
A couple of weeks ago I felt so great as I'm trying to lose weight with the help of weight watchers and have lost 8lb in 3 weeks.
I felt fantastic last week but then of course anxiety does not like you feeling happy for too long and them puts a stop to it.
For the past couple of weeks I have had the following symptoms which are making me so down and really tiring me out:
1. I have a weird pressure in my right temple which a sometimes makes me jump out of my skin when I get it, it feels like (sorry if this sounds weird) but like someone is pulling the inside of my temple up or there is a wormy/nightly feeling. This at times, also feels like a pressure in my ear and face (ears are fine though otherwise).
2. When I get this head feeling I feel hot for a whole
3. I am sensitive to 'any' form of exercise. I did boxing for 10 minutes at home on Saturday, and my joints in my fingers and arms feel really weakened.
4. I have this constant numb/heavily feeling in my left arm which won't go away and is making me feel scared to even go out
5. My jaw clicks on the left when I open and close my mouth and my jaw feels like it's quite stuff (kind if like my tense shoulders and neck)
6. Today when I was on the bus I feel like I have no air, my pulse was fast and I my throat was so dry, no matter how much of my bottled water I drank.
7. My throat continuously feels like it's half of its size and that u have problems breathing, I feel like it is very shallow and feel like my nose breathing don't help.
8. On the bus today, I had what I think, was derationalisation, which is HORRID!!! it's like I was thinking if something and then I panicked and for a moment forgot whereabouts I was for a couple of seconds until I came round again
9. I suffer with ectopics and they have been driving me mad lately, all I have to do is get up it get out of the bath and there there. I hate the empty feeling and the missed beats.
I have a fear if heart attack/stroke/blood pressure and I find it so hard to deal with when I feel like this.
I only slept for 5 hours last night so wondering if that has contributed!
I really just want to get on with my life - I felt 'normal' a couple of weeks ago, when I feel like my Anxiety should have been worse, what with my new starts, job etc.
Have a holiday booked for 4 weeks time and I really don't think I can do it neither.
I am so sorry it is long but I just couldn't wait to come on and pour my heart out.
K