cpe1978
16-07-14, 18:31
Evening everyone
I don't find myself posting on here so much at the moment, even though I do pop in at least once a day to see if there is anything I can contribute to.
So I would say that I still have HA to small degree, but I don't suffer from it. That is massive progress. But as I was driving home this evening I was just thinking about the future, my kids, planning next year's holiday, my job in the future etc. and it dawned on me that one of the legacies of suffering what felt like bad health anxiety at the time is that I no longer seem to have the ability to think positively about the future. Don't get me wrong, I can look forward to tomorrow, next week or even next month if I have something exciting to do, but the idea of planning longer term brings back some of the same anxious feelings that I used to have.
I wondered whether others had encountered this sensation, and whether there was anything you did to train your mind to be normal again? 2 years ago I planned moving house, had a financial future mapped out, plans for holidays and all sorts. I just don't quite seem to be able to bring myself to do that anymore.
That said, for the most part I am good. It has been a hard slog of personal endeavour and also intervention in the form of lots of therapy, but I am grateful for the position I find myself in right now, with the slight knowledge that there is the potential to drift back. But at least I know it is possible.
Hope you are all doing ok,
I don't find myself posting on here so much at the moment, even though I do pop in at least once a day to see if there is anything I can contribute to.
So I would say that I still have HA to small degree, but I don't suffer from it. That is massive progress. But as I was driving home this evening I was just thinking about the future, my kids, planning next year's holiday, my job in the future etc. and it dawned on me that one of the legacies of suffering what felt like bad health anxiety at the time is that I no longer seem to have the ability to think positively about the future. Don't get me wrong, I can look forward to tomorrow, next week or even next month if I have something exciting to do, but the idea of planning longer term brings back some of the same anxious feelings that I used to have.
I wondered whether others had encountered this sensation, and whether there was anything you did to train your mind to be normal again? 2 years ago I planned moving house, had a financial future mapped out, plans for holidays and all sorts. I just don't quite seem to be able to bring myself to do that anymore.
That said, for the most part I am good. It has been a hard slog of personal endeavour and also intervention in the form of lots of therapy, but I am grateful for the position I find myself in right now, with the slight knowledge that there is the potential to drift back. But at least I know it is possible.
Hope you are all doing ok,