Swarbs79
18-12-06, 12:42
Hi everyone
This is my first post here, been something of a lurker up to now, reading but never posting myself. I am pretty sure that health anxiety is what I'm suffering from. Like many of you cancer seems to be my thing, I have a different type every week, and even though I can write here that i know its ridiculous to think I have another cancer every week it doesn't stop me from thinking it next time I have another 'attack' for want of a better word.
Usually its cervical cancer, I don't know why, I don't have any symptoms, just that I can be quite sensitive in that area and have to be careful with washing and what underwear I wear and stuff and even the slightest bit of irritation and I think its cancer. I know that I should just go for a smear test (I'm actually late having one) but I'm too scared to even do that, I just can't bring myself to go because I'm too frightened. I think I suffer from panic attacks too because sometimes I can't get my breath properly, I get twinges in my chest and arms and legs and then I get this tingly feeling that starts in my lower back and then goes like a rush up towards my head and leaves me with this tingly feeling in my neck and head (which obviously I then think is some kind of brain tumour!). Sometime it can leave me feeling sick and dizzy for days afterwards. Actually I've learnt to recognise this for what it is now but it doesn't make it any easier.
I am having a particularly bad day today which is why I have finally decided to post. Feeling a bit sore down below and now I have this sort of aching feeling in my buttock which is probably nothing but I have got myself in a right state googling which I know I shouldn't. Now I am convinced that it is starting to move down my leg and my leg is feeling all weird. Sometimes I wonder which came first, was it the anxiety or the pain. Sometimes I think I can become overly aware or focused on a certain part of my body and then I start to feel things that aren't even there. I don't really know how to explain this, its just this extreme awareness of my body and then I feel so fragile like I might just die any second.
It has made me feel a lot better writing all this down anyway if nothing else so thanks for listening.
Swarbs
This is my first post here, been something of a lurker up to now, reading but never posting myself. I am pretty sure that health anxiety is what I'm suffering from. Like many of you cancer seems to be my thing, I have a different type every week, and even though I can write here that i know its ridiculous to think I have another cancer every week it doesn't stop me from thinking it next time I have another 'attack' for want of a better word.
Usually its cervical cancer, I don't know why, I don't have any symptoms, just that I can be quite sensitive in that area and have to be careful with washing and what underwear I wear and stuff and even the slightest bit of irritation and I think its cancer. I know that I should just go for a smear test (I'm actually late having one) but I'm too scared to even do that, I just can't bring myself to go because I'm too frightened. I think I suffer from panic attacks too because sometimes I can't get my breath properly, I get twinges in my chest and arms and legs and then I get this tingly feeling that starts in my lower back and then goes like a rush up towards my head and leaves me with this tingly feeling in my neck and head (which obviously I then think is some kind of brain tumour!). Sometime it can leave me feeling sick and dizzy for days afterwards. Actually I've learnt to recognise this for what it is now but it doesn't make it any easier.
I am having a particularly bad day today which is why I have finally decided to post. Feeling a bit sore down below and now I have this sort of aching feeling in my buttock which is probably nothing but I have got myself in a right state googling which I know I shouldn't. Now I am convinced that it is starting to move down my leg and my leg is feeling all weird. Sometimes I wonder which came first, was it the anxiety or the pain. Sometimes I think I can become overly aware or focused on a certain part of my body and then I start to feel things that aren't even there. I don't really know how to explain this, its just this extreme awareness of my body and then I feel so fragile like I might just die any second.
It has made me feel a lot better writing all this down anyway if nothing else so thanks for listening.
Swarbs