Blondiexxoo
20-07-14, 21:24
Hey guys! I'm really at a loss here and need urgent help/advice!
I was on 50mg of Zoloft for 4 years. I loved it, I was very calm. The only problem was it threw off my thyroid a little (TSH/T3/T4) and it kinda made me a little careless (like throwing caution to the wind). But I was functioning very well and living a great life. I loved food so much. Because of the side effects, I decided last year in July to go down to 25mg despite my doctor telling me not to. I broke the 50mg pill in half and took it in applesauce like I usually do. From July-December, I appeared to be decently calm but I did lose 8 pounds. I went from 120 (which I was happy with) to 112. But I was still eating 3 meals and fully functional. From January on, I became extremely anxious and lost 6 more. Went down to 105/106. I've had numerous blood tests done and nothing explains the weight loss. For the past few weeks, it's gotten even worse and I've developed a fear of food (probably related to my fear of throwing up and diarrhea). I ask my mom a million questions. I wasn't eating as much but at least then I was still eating relatively okay. I could eat pasta and chocolate still no problem.
Then Thursday night/Friday morning around 2am, I had diarrhea. I was extremely terrified. The next day I stuck to basically plain toast, half a baked potato, and apples. I had diarrhea like twice the next day too. I've never had diarrhea from anxiety before either so that probably wasn't it. I went to see my doctor who suggested I go back up to 50mg when I told her what was going on. My heart would beat like I'm exercising practically 24/7. I told her about the side effects and she suggested 37.5. So I took half of the 50mg pill and half of the 25mg pill, mixed them together, and put it in applesauce. The first night I felt calmer. My heart stopped beating fast. But I felt tingling in the roof of my mouth. I still had diarrhea the next day although it appeared to be getting a little better. Last night the tingling got worse after taking it and my mouth felt like it was on fire. I called a pharmacist who thought it was an allergy to the color dyes in the 25mg pill (since I haven't taken that before) and told me not to take that again cause it could have a cumulative effect since my mouth felt worse the second day. There's 3 color dyes in the 25mg pill compared to 1 color dye in the 50mg pill so that's probably what it was. I freaked out all night and didn't get to bed till late. After about 2 hours of sleep, I woke up and started shaking and panicking and my teeth were chattering I was so scared.
My mom had me eat some breakfast. 2 pieces of plain toast, a banana, and a very small amount of juice. I felt a little better. I went back to bed and when I woke up, I had a little bit of pasta with a little bit of sauce, another piece of plain toast, and an apple. I had another bowel movement, where it was a little bit of diarrhea combined with regular poop. So the virus is practically gone I assume. But I still haven't got my appetite back, I feel nauseous all the time. I'm anorexic but I don't think I'm fat!!! But I'm literally anorexic. My body has no meat on it. I'm scared I'm gonna die!! I'm crying as I type this!! :'( My mom says I have to have a will to fight and that if I don't eat I'm depriving my future kids and grandkids of their future. But she doesn't understand how bad my anxiety is! And I don't know why I can't eat. I've never had a problem eating pasta even when my anxiety is really bad. Never had a problem with it. I feel nauseous all the time and it's scaring me cause I don't know if it's cause I'm hungry or a side effect from the increase from 25 to 37.5. I feel like that's only a small increase. I went from 25 to 50 when I first started it years ago and didn't have side effects, that I can remember. But I look really really bad! I can't even describe it to you. I'm skin and bones! And my mom is trying her best to help but she's getting frustrated, understandably so. I don't know what to do at this point!! Is it best just to take 50mg tonight or not since I haven't been eating much? I'm now 102/103 pounds!!! I'm just so scared! PLEASE HELP, I DON'T KNOW HOW TO HELP MYSELF :'(
I was on 50mg of Zoloft for 4 years. I loved it, I was very calm. The only problem was it threw off my thyroid a little (TSH/T3/T4) and it kinda made me a little careless (like throwing caution to the wind). But I was functioning very well and living a great life. I loved food so much. Because of the side effects, I decided last year in July to go down to 25mg despite my doctor telling me not to. I broke the 50mg pill in half and took it in applesauce like I usually do. From July-December, I appeared to be decently calm but I did lose 8 pounds. I went from 120 (which I was happy with) to 112. But I was still eating 3 meals and fully functional. From January on, I became extremely anxious and lost 6 more. Went down to 105/106. I've had numerous blood tests done and nothing explains the weight loss. For the past few weeks, it's gotten even worse and I've developed a fear of food (probably related to my fear of throwing up and diarrhea). I ask my mom a million questions. I wasn't eating as much but at least then I was still eating relatively okay. I could eat pasta and chocolate still no problem.
Then Thursday night/Friday morning around 2am, I had diarrhea. I was extremely terrified. The next day I stuck to basically plain toast, half a baked potato, and apples. I had diarrhea like twice the next day too. I've never had diarrhea from anxiety before either so that probably wasn't it. I went to see my doctor who suggested I go back up to 50mg when I told her what was going on. My heart would beat like I'm exercising practically 24/7. I told her about the side effects and she suggested 37.5. So I took half of the 50mg pill and half of the 25mg pill, mixed them together, and put it in applesauce. The first night I felt calmer. My heart stopped beating fast. But I felt tingling in the roof of my mouth. I still had diarrhea the next day although it appeared to be getting a little better. Last night the tingling got worse after taking it and my mouth felt like it was on fire. I called a pharmacist who thought it was an allergy to the color dyes in the 25mg pill (since I haven't taken that before) and told me not to take that again cause it could have a cumulative effect since my mouth felt worse the second day. There's 3 color dyes in the 25mg pill compared to 1 color dye in the 50mg pill so that's probably what it was. I freaked out all night and didn't get to bed till late. After about 2 hours of sleep, I woke up and started shaking and panicking and my teeth were chattering I was so scared.
My mom had me eat some breakfast. 2 pieces of plain toast, a banana, and a very small amount of juice. I felt a little better. I went back to bed and when I woke up, I had a little bit of pasta with a little bit of sauce, another piece of plain toast, and an apple. I had another bowel movement, where it was a little bit of diarrhea combined with regular poop. So the virus is practically gone I assume. But I still haven't got my appetite back, I feel nauseous all the time. I'm anorexic but I don't think I'm fat!!! But I'm literally anorexic. My body has no meat on it. I'm scared I'm gonna die!! I'm crying as I type this!! :'( My mom says I have to have a will to fight and that if I don't eat I'm depriving my future kids and grandkids of their future. But she doesn't understand how bad my anxiety is! And I don't know why I can't eat. I've never had a problem eating pasta even when my anxiety is really bad. Never had a problem with it. I feel nauseous all the time and it's scaring me cause I don't know if it's cause I'm hungry or a side effect from the increase from 25 to 37.5. I feel like that's only a small increase. I went from 25 to 50 when I first started it years ago and didn't have side effects, that I can remember. But I look really really bad! I can't even describe it to you. I'm skin and bones! And my mom is trying her best to help but she's getting frustrated, understandably so. I don't know what to do at this point!! Is it best just to take 50mg tonight or not since I haven't been eating much? I'm now 102/103 pounds!!! I'm just so scared! PLEASE HELP, I DON'T KNOW HOW TO HELP MYSELF :'(