Hermos
22-07-14, 22:07
Hi all,
I would really appreciate some advice. At times I feel like I'm going insane...
I'm 23 and currently living in a flat in south east england whilst working full time, having completed my maths degree at the age of 21. I spent a good few months unemployed after graduation, which, combined with my low self-esteem, caused my anxiety to get worse.
I spent six months in my first "real" job before the anxiety got too much and I decided to seek help. I left the job for another (easy) job that paid far less with 0 progression. In the meantime, I sat through CBT and it really helped. My anxiety was pretty much gone and I wasn't scared of doing new things or engaging with the world around me. I found myself this job, and decided to move out of my parent's house and create a new life for myself. My counsellor thought I was ready - and I was - and we discontinued our meetings. This was in October last year.
Fast forward to now. I have been in this job 9 months now, and I'm starting to feel like a failure again. I'm making mistakes and now I worry that I've taken the wrong career. Is this anxiety acting up again, or am I valid in my concerns as an employee? I'm terrified my mental health is slipping (especially since I live alone) and now the days seem to blur together. I'm disappointed to say that I've actually been talking to myself at times (though this seems normal, I'm not having full on conversations) but I tend to blurt out "what if I just died" to myself at times when my anxiety becomes unbearable.
I don't know what to do. I was so happy after my six months of counselling and thought I could take on the world. Old habits die hard... but I want to get that joy back again. Should I move careers and try something different that might displace this anxiety..?
I don't know what to do. I'm terrified I'm an idiot and I'm going to get fired because I'm awful, I don't socialise and I've got such a negative view of the world right now.
I am terrified my life is passing me by. I'm in my early 20s with no girlfriend, a decent career but the constant anxiety I have makes me think I'll never progress with either of those, and I'll end up dead in my flat, found because I didn't turn up to work. I'm really scared I'm messed up past the point of no return and I can't come back from this... that it's now ingrained in my personality and any change is just temporary. What can I do?
I would really appreciate some advice. At times I feel like I'm going insane...
I'm 23 and currently living in a flat in south east england whilst working full time, having completed my maths degree at the age of 21. I spent a good few months unemployed after graduation, which, combined with my low self-esteem, caused my anxiety to get worse.
I spent six months in my first "real" job before the anxiety got too much and I decided to seek help. I left the job for another (easy) job that paid far less with 0 progression. In the meantime, I sat through CBT and it really helped. My anxiety was pretty much gone and I wasn't scared of doing new things or engaging with the world around me. I found myself this job, and decided to move out of my parent's house and create a new life for myself. My counsellor thought I was ready - and I was - and we discontinued our meetings. This was in October last year.
Fast forward to now. I have been in this job 9 months now, and I'm starting to feel like a failure again. I'm making mistakes and now I worry that I've taken the wrong career. Is this anxiety acting up again, or am I valid in my concerns as an employee? I'm terrified my mental health is slipping (especially since I live alone) and now the days seem to blur together. I'm disappointed to say that I've actually been talking to myself at times (though this seems normal, I'm not having full on conversations) but I tend to blurt out "what if I just died" to myself at times when my anxiety becomes unbearable.
I don't know what to do. I was so happy after my six months of counselling and thought I could take on the world. Old habits die hard... but I want to get that joy back again. Should I move careers and try something different that might displace this anxiety..?
I don't know what to do. I'm terrified I'm an idiot and I'm going to get fired because I'm awful, I don't socialise and I've got such a negative view of the world right now.
I am terrified my life is passing me by. I'm in my early 20s with no girlfriend, a decent career but the constant anxiety I have makes me think I'll never progress with either of those, and I'll end up dead in my flat, found because I didn't turn up to work. I'm really scared I'm messed up past the point of no return and I can't come back from this... that it's now ingrained in my personality and any change is just temporary. What can I do?